I Still Want You

13

Jimin's P.O.V

I usually wake up to my ass hurting, but today was different. Surprised, I woke up to emptiness next to me. When I turn around, I get scared by only seeing moved-aside blankets and squished pillow.

I walk downstairs and I still hear nothing as I step down the stairs. When I get down, there's a plate in the sink and a plate in the table with a note next to it. "Minnie-ssi, there was an emergency at my parents' house, so I left. I didn't want to wake you when you were sleeping so peacefully. That's why I left this note. Hope you enjoy your breakfast, love you!!" 

Yeah, he loves me and I love him, right? Well fuck that because I know he doesn't love me anymore. A few days ago, he left me again and came back drunk-the next morning-with hickies sucked all over him.

I haven't told him about it yet. And I don't plan to at all. If he wants to do this so bad, then let him. I'll do the same-if I can bring myself to do it. I mean Yoongi is my life, and I love him. What happens if I hurt him and then find out that he wasn't hurting me?

But all this hurt me. I didn't eat and I just threw it away. While I washed the two plates, I started going back to the beginning of our relationship. I was his everything and he was my everything. While I continued thinking about our past memories, I felt a drop fall down my cheek.

I placed the plate down and turned off the water and threw myself onto the couch, letting myself cry my feelings out. About an hour passed before I actually got off the couch and gathered myself.

This time, I called a hyung. Seokjin hyung was the only one that would pick up, so I tell him everything. He just sat there and listened to me. I talked to him for half an hour. By the time he hung up, I was in tears again.

Then, I hear the door bell and I do my best to gather myself. When I get to the door, I look through the window and see Yoongi waiting. I roll my eyes and walk back upstairs. My phone starting wringing and I guess he saw me.

Without answering, I hide myself in the bed sheets and I end up falling back to sleep.