I Still Want You

21

Jimin's P.O.V
I swear I don't have anything to tell. Other than the fact that I've been cheating to Yoongi, but I know that's not what he wants. At least, I think.

I look down and stare at my lap. The others are trying to figure out what it could be. All of them except Namjoon. Well if Namjoon hyung knows, then Seokjin hyung must know too, right?

Well Namjoon was like a billion times smarter than his husband and has a better memory than him. So I guess Seokjin hyung really doesn't know.

"Yoongi, I really don't know what you're asking for," I tell him. He sighs and tells us himself. "Your mother told me two things. She doesn't know that she told me two things, but she doesn't have to know that. At least, not for now."

I raise my eyebrows at his words. "First off, this isn't the first time that you've done something like this. She told me that you did something similar about a year ago with Hoseok."

Oh. OOOH NOOO

"You thought that he would drift off and leave you like the other people did when you were younger." I could feel tears stinging my eyes and all the others staring at me. They knew what was coming next.

Yoongi and I would have been dating for about three years now if it weren't for all of this shit. I guess that's what Namjoon hyung knows.

"I'll let you say the next part. You or Hoseok"

Fuck it. Fuck my life. Fuck everything. I couldn't take it any longer.

"I cheated on Yoongi. And I have been. For about year now. With Hoseok." I blurted it all out. My back suddenly straightened and tears started making a burning path down my cheeks.

Yoongi's eyes were now filled with tears too. I missed looking into them. Their space-black color and the way that the light reflects. But there was something else too. He looked tired l, as if he hadn't slept in days. I don't know why I cheated on him. And I don't think I'll ever find out.

"That's the rest for you," Yoongi said with his voice breaking. He stood up to leave the room we were all sitting in. As he did. I noticed how much more baggy his clothes looked. Damn he got so much skinnier.

All because of me. Fuck me. I opened my mouth to say something but all that came out was a sob. Yoongi didn't move. The tears started falling out my eyes again. I curled back and my stomach started hurting because of how much I was shaking. I managed to get something out though.

"I-I'm sorry."

Pfft. Like a sorry was gonna do anything. "I love you and-" Yoongi cut me off.

"Just be quiet" he came to be and curled himself so that he was clinging to my back. Both of us had forgotten our setting and neither of us really cared at this point.

I could feel his tears wetting the back of my shirt. They were soft and he wasn't full-on body crying like i was. Instead, they seemed to fall out like a waterfall.

"You know that I still want you. Even if you don't want me. I still love you. And I always will. And-"

I turned around and cut him off with a kiss. I pull away after a few seconds and whisper, "You know that you're the only person that I'll ever love this much."

He looks into my eyes that I can feel are puffy. "That doesn't mean I've forgiven you." My slight smile drops and I say, "yeah, I know"

The warmth of his body helps to warm up mine. No one else says a single word and they start leaving. Hobi is the last one to leave.

Neither Yoongi nor I move. We've become comfortable in this position and I could feel Yoongis soft snores against my back. A smile creeps onto my face and I drift off to sleep

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