am i what you want?| billie eilish

10.| better together

it's been a few weeks, billie has been distant again. i'm honestly over it at this point.

"come on lei get up!" vic bounced on my bed "you have to get up and go to your shoot" rae came in and laid an outfit down on the foot of my bed. i swear these bitches act like my parents.

"fine. fine!" i laughed while pushing vic off the bed. "don't fucking jump on me." i warned and she laughed walking up to me and giving me a hug then her and rae went to leave the room.

i got up to get ready, doing my hair and my makeup before going downstairs to eat. "what's wrong?" vic asked before i even got into the kitchen. i swear this bitch can read my mood from a mile away. "nothing" i lied. she walked up to me standing right in my face, looking into my eyes. "mmm. what's wrong?" she asked again.

she thinks she's like an inspector gadget forreal. "i'm fine vic" i said turning into the kitchen. "it's billie isn't it? i'll kill her.." she came after me and i froze because how the fuck did she know.

"no it's not billie, billie is good" i gave her a fake smile and went into the fridge. i felt my phone slip from my back pocket and turned to see vic scrolling through something. had to have been me and billies texts. damn this bitch is good.

"y'all haven't talked in almost two weeks..." she frowned. "she's a busy person" i shrugged and she squinted her eyes at me knowing i was making excuses. "it doesn't matter vic. leave it!" i raised my voice and snatched my phone from her hand before grabbing my keys and leaving.

i still had another 2 hours before my shoot so i decided to go to billies. why not? when i pulled into her huge ass driveway i went to the door and knocked on it. i waited a minute and there was no answer, but as soon as i went to walk away it opened. i quickly turned around but didn't see billie.

"what are you doing here?" the guy asked and i stood there silent, not being able to believe who was standing in front of me. "yo billie! there's some crazy fan outside" he yelled to her. "hold up LJ!" she yelled back as i saw her run down the stairs, putting and oversized shirt on.

"i-i- im sorry, must've been the wrong house" i stuttered and went to turn away again. "alaia? what are you doing here?" billie asked standing at the door. "you know her?" LJ asked with his eyebrows furrowed and i looked at billie waiting for what she was going to say. "uhm y-yea she's a friend of mine. i met her when i went to Florida" she said looking down.

that was my last straw. i looked up at her with so much hurt in my eyes and walked to my car, speeding off and down the road.

when i got back to my house i ran straight to my room, slamming the door behind me. i didn't even get the chance to get to my bed before i began sobbing. my body went weak and i slid my back down the door.

my phone kept going off. i already had 22 missed called from billie and then a bunch of messages from her saying things like "alaia, come back we need to talk." or "alaia i'm sorry, it's not what it looks like" but it sure seemed like that's what it was.

i put my phone on dnd and went to lay in bed until i had to leave.

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a few hours later i was heading home from my shoot, they had to load foundation on my under eyes because of the puffiness. when i pulled into my driveway i saw that black challenger, sitting there.

i walked right past it not even checking to see if she was in there. when i got inside vic and rae were standing in the kitchen laughing about something but their smiles dropped the moment they saw me.

i went upstairs knowing billie had to have been in my room, i opened the door and of course there she was laying on my bed scrolling on her phone.

"get the fuck out" i warned and she sat up, staring at me. "billie fucking leave bro i don't want you here!" i yelled pointing at the door. "alaia ." she said lowly. "no billie. fuck this and fuck you! i'm sick of giving you chances to do better" she got off the bed and walked up to me, standing right in my face. "alaia!" she said a bit louder "leave billie" and she grabbed my shoulders. "alaia! oh my god can you just shut up and fucking listen!" she yelled and closed my door.

"nothing has happened between LJ and i, nothing at all! he was there to help finneas with something and i was upstairs changing because i had just gotten out the bath, hence why i was putting on a shirt!" she yelled.

i huffed and pushed her hands off my shoulders. "what do you not believe me?" she asked more calmly. "i want to billie, i really do but how can you explain you being distant and shit" i shrugged. "here i'll show you" she sighed, pulling her phone from her back pocket.

she placed it to her ear and went silent until someone started talking. she put it on speaker and placed it between us. "hey finn, wasn't LJ helping you out with something today?" she asked him and looked up at me waiting for him to answer. "yea we had to set up some equipment. why?" he answered and she bucked her eyes at me, causing me to roll my eyes and cross my arms. "no reason, thanks love you!" she said before hanging up.

"now do you believe me? and i was only distant because i was scared you regretted that night." she mumbled and my eyes widened. "billie no. i don't regret that night at all." i gave her a slight smile and she looked up at me with a smile.

"come on, let's watch a movie" she grabbed my arms and pulled me onto my bed. "let me change" i said and quickly went to my dresser pulling out a pair of grey sweatpants and a black crop top.

i took my shirt off and looked through my mirror at billie who was staring at me and blushing like a little bitch. "like what you see?" i grinned and she quickly put her head down.

"your good billie, i was joking" i laughed while pulling up my sweatpants and then climbing back into bed. "what should we watch?" she asked while pulling me close to her chest. "anything is okay to me" i yawned and pulled the blanket over my chest.

about an hour into the movie i could feel billie looking down at me. "what's up?" i giggled and started blushing "you're beautiful alaia" she whispered while looking me in the eyes. "i bet you tell all your other bitches that" i joked and she gave me her famous rbf. "i'm so serious alaia, i don't want anyone else" she said with annoyance.

"i won't believe it till i see it" i playfully rolled my eyes as i turned towards her and she looked down at me, with that same look in her eyes from the night we had sex.

she grabbed my chin and gently pressed her lips against mine. "i want you to be my girlfriend" she smirked as she pulled away from the kiss.

i was speechless, definitely not what i was expecting. "of course billie" i smiled and kissed her once more before laying back on her chest.

a/n ~ ahhhh my girls are together!!!! we're almost at 100 reads guys🙌🏼