am i what you want?| billie eilish

24.| home

i get back to LA tomorrow , jonah and i have been hanging out nonstop and it honestly has been so fun. 

"alaia! can you stop whining!" jonah laughed as i pouted on the couch. "can you put on the kissing booth?!" i whined and he rolled his eyes "oh my god fine" he groaned as a large smile spread across my face.

i got comfortable and put my legs out on the ottoman in front of us while also cuddling into the huge ass blanket he has on his couch. i could feel his eyes on me but i ignored it. i was way to horny for this right now

midway through the movie i looked up at him and he was staring deep into the movie. "jonah?" i asked and he hummed in response "looks like you like it?" i rose and eyebrow and he laughed and looked at me with a smile. "come here" he whispered and pulled me in for a kiss. i didn't bother to pull away, i was already so caught in the moment.

he grabbed under my thigh and lifted me up to carry me to the bedroom. he gently laid me down on the bed without ever breaking the kiss.

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we laid in bed out of breath, just sitting in a comfortable silence while my head rested on his chest. "you are everything, everything alaia" he whispered, breaking the silence. i looked up at him and smiled, pulling him down and placed a soft kiss on his lips.

our moment was interrupted by my phone ringing in the living room. i got out of the bed and put my clothes back on before rushing back to the living room. i picked up my phone to see billies contact across my screen.

"hey my love" i stuttered "hey baby, what's wrong?" concern was evident in her voice. "nothing it's just been a long day" i turned around to see jonah getting out of bed and coming into the living room. "you want to talk about it?" she asked and i looked at jonah again who was just staring me down. "not right now, i'm leaving for the airport soon. i'll talk to you when i'm there. i love you" "i love you too" she said before hanging up.

"sneaky" jonah face palmed and grabbed me by the waist, pulling me to him. "don't leave" he pouted making me smile. "i have to, i'll keep in touch though. i promise" i kissed him and pulled away to put my shoes on.

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when i got off the plane billie was waiting for me with a big ass smile on her face. "i missed you" she laughed as i jumped into her arms. "i missed you more" i whispered into the crook of her neck.

"how was florida?" she asked as we walked to the car. "it was okay. savanna's mom is finally out of the hospital and her dad is in custody" i told her while putting my suitcase in the trunk. "that's good my love" she smiled while getting into the car.

when we got home, we decided to just relax. we laid on the couch and binge watched movies. I felt her eyes on me and I looked up at her. "what?" i giggled

"you're so beautiful" she smiled causing me to blush. my phone vibrated under my leg and billie grabbed it for me.

"it's vic" she placed it on my chest and i waited for her to look away before checking my phone. I had Jonah on dnd so she wouldn't see any notifications from him.

he's already texted me so many times. i regret even fucking him because i'm so in love with billie but it was just in the moment.

listen jonah, it's not going to happen again so just leave it. please? i hit send and sat up.

"do you want take out? i can get thai or something?" billie asked while scrolling on her phone. "sure baby" i smiled and got up to grab a drink.

i honestly feel so bad for doing this to billie, it was so fucking wrong of me because i love this girl with damn near every part of me.

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the next day we decided to go and hang out with claudia and finneas. we all went to see a movie, which was absolutely disturbing in ever which way possible..

"how was florida?" claud asked as she sat beside me on the couch. "it was okay" i shrugged and gave her a smile.

"guys i'm hungry" billie whined.

"claud and I can go grab some food while you and finneas work on some music." i offered and billie quickly nodded.

claudia and i headed out the house and took her car to go pick up some food to make.

"why are you so quiet" claudia asked without taking her eyes off the road.

"i'm not? what do you mean?" i chuckled

"you're normally all hyper and shit and right now you seem like you're hiding something so let's go spit it out" she said and finally looked my way.

my eyes widened and i gulped. how the fuck does she know. "i fucked up." i mumbled. "you saw jonah, huh?" she immediately asked and i nodded.

"what happened?" she asked with worry in her tone.

"we fucked the day i left" i sighed, grossed out by even admitting to it.

"shit alaia" claudia sighed. "i won't say anything, but you have to" she said and i nodded. "i know." i whispered.

when we got back to the house we made dinner and everyone sat at the table to eat.

"how's the song going?" claudia covered her mouth to talk. "pretty good to be honest, we are working on the chorus" billie smiled causing me to do the same.

"can we hear it?" i asked and her smiled turned into a serious look. "not until it's done" she shrugged. "oooo you're so stubborn!" i groaned

a/n i'm soooo sorry for the late update i've been so stuck and literally finally just got some ideas today. only a few more chapters left tho :( hang onto ur seatbelts bc it's abt to get crazy😝😝