am i what you want?| billie eilish

25.| after everything

3 weeks later...

"good morning my love" i opened my eyes to billie sitting at the edge of the bed brushing out her hair.

"what time is it" i yawned before leaning forward and giving her a kiss.

"uhm twelve thirty. what do you want to do today?" she turned around and pulled me into her arms. i shrugged and looked up at her.

"can we just chill here, i threw up last night and just want to lay down" i groaned. billie frowned and looked down at me "why didn't you wake me love?"

"because it wasn't a big deal" i chuckled. billie shook her head and stood up. "let's go eat some breakfast" she smiled and reached her hand out for me to grab.

we got downstairs and i sat on the counter while billie filled us both a bowl of fruit. "here mamas" she handed me a bowl and hopped up onto the counter with me. "want to watch a movie?"

"please" i smiled and hopped off the counter, following billie to the living room. we got comfortable and laid on the couch under some blankets then she put on Aladdin.

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towards the end of the movie i woke up to a knock on the door. billie gently moved me off of her lap and went to answer it.

"what the fuck are you doing here?" i quickly sat up and adjusted my body to see who was at the door.

holy shit...

"alaia left her bra at my house, i was thinking she might need it" jonah grinned at me from the door.

billies face went blank and she turned towards me. i was in shock. so many different thoughts spinning around my head.

"alaia. why was your bra at jonah's house?" she clenched her jaw and locked eyes with me. "it must've still been there from when we dated? i don't know" i stuttered

"alaia don't lie to your lovely girlfriend." jonah walked in and stood near the couch. "we hung out while you were back home right?" he asked me and i gulped while looking back and forth between him and billie. the tension in the room grew by the second.

i just nodded, not being able to let a word escape my mouth. "and we fucked. correct?" he asked. i looked at billie and her face consumed with hurt. "billie i'm so-"

"you fucked him?" she whispered. i stayed silent and looked up at jonah with hatred. "why would you ever? you fucking dick" i sucked my teeth and got up and went to billie.

"it was a mistake billie, honestly i regret it so much. i told him it was a one time thing and i meant it. i feel nothing for him billie. absolutely nothing!" i tried to grab her but she pushed me back.

"i'm gonna go" jonah smirked and walked outside. billie slammed the door the second he walked out and went to walk away from me.

"billie! can we please just talk about this" i cried as i followed her to the kitchen. "you fucked him alaia!" she whipped herself around and stared me down with tears in her eyes.

"billie if i could take it back i would, i really would. i love you so much" she rolled her eyes and walked upstairs.

"you do not get to walk away from me!" i yelled and ran after her. "do you not remember that you cheated on me with kamari?!" i stood in the bedroom doorway while she grabbed her things from the closet.

"those were texts alaia, i never met her. you fucked your ex. two different situations" she cried.

"what are you doing." i asked as she shoved a bunch of her clothes into a bag. "i'm leaving alaia. we're done" she whispered while wiping the tears from her face.