game over | doil

chapter 14

Rain tapped gently against the window as if trying to wash away the choices Taeil had made. The soft patterning of raindrops that usually brought a sense of composure but all he felt was a profound of numbness. Taeil feel drained, the weight of emptiness settled in his heart.

Taeil let out a painful sigh. Looking at all the article written by NCT fans covering their favourite mistake and digging the victim past. He can see that Sicheng tried putting out more proof of the scandal but well.. we can only see what we want to see.

Freelancer journalist started digging into the victim past. More story to cover, more lies added just to get a mere click and view.

The fact that revealing the truth only hurting the victim even more. All of the victim is not saint, no one is saint. People do mistake, that just make us human - but that doesn't mean its okay to hurt them!

Sicheng already drop everything he have - a clear sex tape with a clear voice of Johnny - a detailed chat history with all the pictures, voice notes and call record history from Taeyong - the victim age that freshly turned twenty years old at the time Yuta was dating her - a glass clear picture of Doyoung hugging, kissing a man.

Everything will be forgotten in less than a month.

Now, Taeil think back of his action. The truth unfolding does nothing to the members - so what did Taeil gain from this? Ruining a relationship that Doyoung swore was real. Not trying to think on Doyoung's side.. was it Taeil fault for ruining a great relationship?

Did Taeil regret his action?

...

He loves Doyoung. He could not live a life without Doyoung. None of this was easy for Taeil. It's not as easy as the way Taeil make it seems.

Taeil just learn to conceal his pain. Afterall, it's not his first time.

Gentle click on the door pulled Taeil attention away from his dark thoughts. He turned his gaze toward the doorway, his eyes catches Jaehyun's entrance.

Taeil put on a soft smile and although it was clearly forced - it was a smile that brace as a shield, an attempt to hide the agitation that raged within him. He didn't want Jaehyun to see the extpain of his pain. Jaehyun had seen enough.

Jaehyun close the door behind as he takes timid step toward Taeil.

Jaehyun sighed silently - he noticed what Taeil was doing. Jaehyun could confirm that Taeil is much more stronger than he was before. He saw how Taeil cried himself to sleep during the time he broke up with Sicheng. Now, the same man didn't even sheed tears. He know his worth and a guy like Doyoung doesn't deserved even a drop of his tears.

Forcing a smile to match Taeil, Jaehyun choose to pretend he didn't see Taeil's inner pain. If Taeil didn't want him to see it, Jaehyun will not see it. When their eyes meet, Jaehyun bite his lower lips as his eyes aches painfully looking into the empty eyes.

If Jaehyun can make a choice, he prefered Taeil crying instead of those empty gaze.

Jaehyun sat down in front of Taeil, settling on the floor - watching the same window that takes so much of Taeil interest. Silence slowly warps them in, the air feels suffocating. Jaehyun take a glance at Taeil, he couldn't handle the painful silence.

"You did great," a soft whispers.

Taeil let out a faint, wistful smile and said, "Yeah.. I supposed I did that.."

"What's next?"

"Well.. I need more time to think about that. if you have any idea - maybe you can share it with me.." an empty laugh, "I'm sorry about Johnny."