Red Flag

Chapter 26

Providence and Concord were the last two cities before they could go back to L.A. for a few weeks. As much as Matt loved being on tour, it was draining.

And spending so much time with Alex and John with Ryan there was making things get a bit sharp. After his last show in Boston Alex, as his co-worker and not his friend, told him off for spending so much time with Dylan, going out for dinner, sleeping in and checking in late for meetings.

All this in front of her, well done Alex. The girl ended up crying and offering to go back home on her own so they could go on in peace. Of course he refused to let her do that.
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Ryan let out a soft moan as Matt bit her lip before kissing her again.

"Can I just stay in here all day?" The boy whispered pressing his forehead to Ryan's

"I wouldn't mind" she laughed "but you have stuff to do"

"Alex can suck my dick, he made you cry and didn't even apologize. I don't need to do tonight's show, I don't even need food. I have you" he said pulling her into his chest.

"As romantic as that is, you know you're lying. Listen, I know you have a very bad feeling about tonight's show. If it really goes I'll make you feel better right after" she looked up at him.

"Make me feel better as in....?" He asked and looked down at her, she licked her lips an slowly tucked her lower lip between her teeth "oh.." he almost purred "even if it's in the venue's bathroom?"

"Even if it's in a filthy bathroom" she nodded

"You promise?" He asked, his eyes sparkling already

"I swear on my pop's soul" she closed her eyes and put a hand to her heart.

"Love you so much Ryan" he sighed in awe

Ryan's P.O.V

My heart skipped a beat every time those words left his mouth, why? I don't know, I feel loved but I guess Matt's love just feels different. I never knew why but, I have little ..theory...if you will..and it consists in the fact that depressive love hits harder. In my mind it makes sense, think about it. We feel so deprived of any form of happiness that we somehow know exactly to make a person feel cared for, loved and safe. And trust me, once you find the person that makes you feel just right, you don't want to let them go!

And there's also the plus to our particular situation, we both have depression, both of us know how it feels and we don't wanna feel that way. Tho, I do feel bad about one thing. Matt has seen me at my lowest a few times and knows how to get me out or even prevent those episodes but I always see him happy.

It's not that I want to see him sad or hurt in any kind of way, I just wonder if that means I haven't been paying enough attention. I like to think that, in my ADHD mind, I pick up on small things that would normally go unnoticed. But what if I've been neglecting my boyfriend?

Matt's P.O.V

It was moments like this I loved, we're just lying in bed cuddling but, I feel safe. Ryan makes me feel safe and happier than I've ever known I could feel.

Being with her makes me feel like I'm a teenager in love, I finally found someone who sees the world the same way that I do but in another level. I've learned a lot if things from Ry and I know there's more to come. I never know what she'll come up with.

Every second I spend with her makes me fall for her deeper and deeper. She's my walking green flag, she's my best friend and I don't want her to ever go away.
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We stayed in bed for a little while longer, today I had meetings practically all day and then I had a show at night. All I wanted was to stay in my baby's arms and pretend the rest of the world was gone. Specially cause I had a feeling tonight's show was gonna suck.