Jonathan Joseph

Chapter 13

Somewhere between crying and ending up at the auto body repair shop ... Somehow we ended up at some restaurant off the highway. 3o minutes on the road and we already broke down Clyde was flustered the whole time and swore he had everything under control. I knew the jeep better than anyone even though I knew this kind of thing always happened it was cute seeing him trying to prove something. After an hour there we finally got a move on but our stomach was not up for the next two and a half hours.

As we placed our orders something kept ringing in the back of my mind. I'm assuming my face said it all too.

"What are you thinking?" He asked.

When am I not thinking...

"Nothing." I sighed.

He leaned forward locking his eyes into mine raising his eyebrows. I smiled his dark brown eyes sending this weird feeling through my body. "Sorry, it's just that.. The last time I been on a date was when.." I figured he'd new that the last time was before Jonathan died without me saying it but his sly expression didn't change.

"I'm sorry, I didn't know this was a date." He smirked.

My body stiffened and I could feel my face practically igniting on fire. I spit out a few words that didn't even make a sentence that made sense. "I uh... I didn't, wow." My embarrassment caused him to chuckle but of course I didn't think it was funny. "I'm only saying that because if I were to take you on a date it wouldn't be like this."

"What's wrong with this?" I finally chocked up.

"You, my friend deserve something magnificent. But I don't mean fancy either that's a bit overrated. I'd knock on your door at two o'clock in the morning when you think you look your worst, but really you're at your best not only because you're already beautiful but only because you didn't try."

I blushed. "That's your idea of magnificent? Where would we even go at two in the morning?"

He scoffed. "Where wouldn't we go? And it's only magnificent if you are in the equation."

From that moment on the rest of the evening remained frozen. It was like the only two people in the room was him and I you could hear nothing but our laughter. At that point that's when I believed that everyone needs a someone to forget about every single bad thing that's in the world, cause right now nothing mattered it was just the now that I was enjoying not the past or the future just this right here...

After a good meal Clyde went back inside to use the bathroom. I waited in the car day dreaming of the day I couldn't help but to think that this has been one of the best days I've had in a long time even if it didn't mean much. I relaxed in my chair only to get startled by the sudden dark clouds that rolled in over the sun sending loud strikes of thunder. I rolled down the window looking up at the sky and within seconds the rain began pouring over my head leaking into the car. I closed it quickly- I jumped out my skin once I looked over at Clyde's side. "Jonathan?" I said breathlessly watching him as he sat right next to me.

He stares blankly at me and eventually forces a smile.

"What's wrong are you okay?" I managed to ask.

My heart ached at the sight of his tears filling his eyes. "I'm not suppose to be here." His voice quivered.

"What?-"

He broke down finally letting his sobs out as he put his head down on to the steering wheel. "I can't feel you forgetting me Chelsea... I-I don't know what to do."

I whimpered at the words that just came from his mouth I couldn't even put together a full sentence that made sense.

"It's okay." He said trying to pull himself together. "It's what I want I just didn't think it would hurt this much.. But it's best for you I don't want you-"

"Stop." I shouted.

He made a hush sound with his lips and looked up at the sky his face went pale and he looked at me with this frightened look on his face. "Tell me quick." He said.

"What?"

"How did I die?" He asked.

"You still don't remember?"

"They're keeping it a secret from me.."

"You-"

"They're coming." He whispered.

I looked around but I saw nothing. "Who's-"

"One more promise Chelsea..."

I looked up trying to figure out what he was gazing at but when I looked back to ask him what the last promise was he was gone.

"Jonathan!" I screamed on the top of my lungs...

I hit the dashboard over and over again screaming his name until I ran out of breath the aches in my body were unbelievable them sound of my phone prevented me from hitting the dashboard one last time. Still sobbing I picked up the phone to look at the caller ID - holding my breath I put the phone to my ear.

"Hi, Regina." I covered my mouth holding in my whimpering.

"Chelsea is everything okay?"

It was one of those moments when you're holding the weight of the world inside you and someone ask that specific question and you just break down.
"Is Johnathan still safe? I saw him, he came here." I cried.

"I don't really think-"

"Regina tell me." I shouted.

"I'm so sorry."

I knew without her saying it was already done Jonathan was probably somewhere within the shadows. I couldn't help but think that this was all my fault he knew he wasn't  supposed to be here but he felt me somehow forgetting him - even though  that would never happen he still felt it. I closed my eyes and the thoughts ran through my head I only had one choice and I finally came to a conclusion that would fix everything

"I can do this anymore Regina."

"Yes you just-"

"I've made my choice."

"No Chelsea don't do this." I could hear her voice quivering.

"When I comeback whatever James wants he can have as long as Jonathan and I are together everything will be okay."

I could hear her scrambling for words through the line but before I hung up I promised to her and myself Clyde would know the truth about everything before I go but he doesn't need to know how this is going to end..