Our Song ON HOLD

11. Just Started

Libbie POV

This was the moment I had dreaded since he got here........taking him to the airport and letting him go. Something about the way he made me feel, the things he made me feel made this so very hard to do.
As I watch him check in and hand over his case it's all I can do to fight back the tears that were threatening to fall. I didn't want him to see me cry, I swore after the last guy that I would never allow another guy to see a single tear fall down my face and so far I've stuck to it.

While he'd been here I had slept better than I had in a long time, something about being in his arms made easy to just drift off and I think I'm going to miss that the most.....feeling completely safe.

As much as I found him leaving hard, I was also terrified. I was cared to allow myself to love him, to say those words just incase he did what all the others have done.....leave me. I believe by not letting it show and not saying it out loud meant that when the inevitable happens it would hurt less.

"Well that's me checked in baby" he says stopping in front of me, placing his carry on bag on the floor and taking hold of my hips pulling me to him "just one thing left to do and I really don't want to do it"

"Me neither" I sigh "it feels like you just got here, like we just got started and now you have to go.........I wish you could stay"

"So do I but duty calls" he chuckles softly "I have to get back to work, if I could take you with I would but........"

"My schedule is taking me in the opposite direction I know" I sigh "I'd be in completely the wrong place but at least I'd be with you"

"We will see each other again soon I promise" he says resting his head against mine "and we will call as often as we can, we will make this work"

"Do something for me" I say and he looks deep into my eyes "kiss me like you always do and then just go.......please don't say goodbye.........I don't want to have to say it back"

Without saying a word he takes my face in his hands and kisses me just as he always does......at first at least, suddenly it changes, it becomes slower, more delicate and more...........loving. Our lips part but I keep my eyes closed and he takes me into his embrace.

I cling to him not willing to let go, but when he does I know I have to do the same. I feel his lips near my ear and he whispers "tienes mi corazón" before letting me go completely and grabbing his bag.

All I can is watch him walk away frozen to the spot, I knew what he said, and what he meant by it but I couldn't bring myself to say anything back but then my panic is momentarily broken when I spot something as he's walking away, something showing just above his jeans.........my lace thong.......he still had it and was still wearing it......in public no less.

Just like that my frown turns into a smile as I chuckle softly to myself until I can no longer see him.

Damian POV

When iy reach the arena for the next show all I can think about was Libbie. I knew from the look of fear on her face and the fact that she froze to the spot and said nothing that she had understood what I had whispered to her.

Though I didn't know if she knew what I was trying to say. I hadn't wanted to say it directly becuase I didn't want to frighten her but at the same time I was want to reassure her somehow that she wasn't going to lose me now that we were apart.

"Hey Priest, looked like you had fun at that awards ceremony" Rhea grins "I take it all went well"

"It was amazing, she's amazing" I smile "it's crazy how much I miss her right now, even more than I did before"

"Did you tell her you love her?" She asks

"No, she needs to be handled delicately. She's been hurt alot and although she wants to be with me she's scared" I say "I want to show her that I'm not going anywhere without frightening her"

"Poor thing, I............what the hell is that?" Rhea asks tugging at my belt "is that.......it is........it's a lace thong...........are you wearing womens underwear?" She giggles

"She stole my boxers so I stole her thong" I smirk but my smirk quickly fades when Rhea decides to pull it up to get a closer look "fuck......watch it......your cutting my shit in two" I gasp

"Oh hush I was just curious what size it was" she says letting go "now I know what size to get you if I see anything I think you'll like in the women's section" she grins

"Very funny nightmare" I say rolling my eyes "this is the one and only item of women's clothing I will ever wear"

"Anyway back to what you were saying.....what have you said to her about how you feel?" She asks

"Well, we both said we liked each other a lot and then when I was leaving I told her in Spanish that she had my heart" I say "I didn't think she would know what I said but I think she did and I think I scared her.

"Maybe the best thing to do is let her say it first" she says "that way  it won't scare her if you say it back"

"But what if she never says it........what if she doesn't love me?" I ask

"I watched the award ceremony and I saw the way she looked at you" she says "if she doesn't already she is definitely on her way to it"