Our Song ON HOLD

17. Time

Libbie POV

"What's brought this on?" Delila asks me as I pace up and down on the balcony of the hotel room, occasionally looking through the window to make sure Damian was still sleeping.

I had woken early this morning with a lot of things going round in my head, in the twilight hours I had made some decisions and that's why I had called Delila.......I needed her help to put them in motion.

"I'm getting to that" I say as I notice the sun starting to rise "I want to clear my schedule and have time for myself so that I can think about what I'm going to do, and I can't do that if I'm working non stop"

"Well it's about time you took a break, you were going to wear yourself out" she says "now the information you asked for, am I emailing it to you or do you want me to bring it to you when you get home"

"Email it, that way when I have a little time to myself I can start my research" I say "I want my decision to be as informed as possible"

"I'm proud of you Lib" she says "I know what's it taken for you to even consider it.......he must be something really special"

"He is" I smile looking through the window at him and then I notice him reach out his arm and then lift his head when he realises I'm not there "I have to go he's waking up, remember this stays between us, not even he can know"

"Alright, I'll speak to you soon" she says "I'll get the stuff to you as soon as a I can"

Ending the call I slide open the balcony door and step into the room just as he sits up. When he sees me he smiles, lays back down and opens his arms to me.
I climb back into bed and snuggle into him, he lifts my chin and kisses me lovingly.

"Good morning nightingale" he says "once again I wake up to you on the other side of the room, and I'd much rather wake up to you next to me"

"Sorry I needed to make a call" I say running my finger tips over his cheek "I've decided to take a time out from work, take some time for me"

"Really? How long for?" He asks

"Indefinitely" I say "there's things I'd like to do like spend more time with you, I really want to focus my energy into making us work. I mean thats if you want me with you..........I can go back home if you want I dont want to force you to spend time with me"

"Baby relax" he says cupping my cheek "I would love nothing more than to have you with me be it on the road or at my place in florida"

"How are you feeling this morning?" I ask "I know last night was a bit of a roller coaster for you"

"Better, much better" he says "you know the song you sang to me, the one we danced to in the video..........I think we should make it our song"

"I like that idea" I smile

"And what we talked about last night, I'm hoping you don't feel like I'm forcing you to consider it" he says "I would never make you do something you don't want to do, I just didn't want you to rule it out completely"

"You didn't.......I don't" I say "besides we have plenty of time to get to that point right?"

"Of course we do, plenty of time to enjoy each other before we take that step" he smiles "I love you"

"I love you" I say kissing him softly "do you think maybe when you feel ready you could tell me more about what happened with your ex? I just want to make sure I don't trigger you again"

"Yeah I can do that" he says nervously "so like I said the house was filled with candles, scented candles.....sandalwood I believe. I thought she had a surprise planned for me, so I followed the candles all the way to our room and then I heard music playing low.........it was Sexual Healing. I pushed open the door and there she was.........riding my best friend in our bed. She had on red lingerie. I just remember feeling my heart shatter and feeling like an intruder in my own home. I'm stood there with a ring in my pocket and the woman who I thought loved me was in bed with my best friend"

"She must have been blind to not see what she had" I say as he rests his head on my chest "on the other hand her blindness gave me the chance to love you and I'm grateful for that"

"How would you feel about coming home with me on my down time?" He asks "We could spend some time together just the two of us, I don't think we've ever been fully alone since we met" he chuckles

"I'd love to" I say "Hey you could finally make me that cheescake"

"And you can make me that drink" he smiles "cheesecake and alcohol.....I think we are going to have loads of fun" he says quickly rolling me on to my back making my giggle before leaning down and kissing me passionately.