Our Song ON HOLD

10. Reassurance

Damian POV

As I open my eyes I'm immediately aware of the gentle sound of a guitar. I reach out my arm and find the space next to me empty and the sheets cold.

Last night had been nothing short of amazing, I hadn't expected to connect with her on such a deep intimate level as I had last night, I also hadn't expected to wake up alone.

My as scan the room and they fall on Libbie, she's curled up in a chair in the corner, eyes closed as she quietly sings her lyrics while her fingers gently strum the strings of her guitar.

She's wearing nothing but my shirt and to my suprise my boxers. Quietly I prop my head up on my hand and watch her not wanting to disturb her moment.

"Here I go again, making the same mistakes. Coz I know in the end, he's gonna be no different" she sings softly her voice full of emotion.

I couldn't help but wonder if she was thinking of me while she was singing. If there were some deep fears she was yet to confide in me. I know in my heart that I'm going nowhere, I'm hers and that will never change but does she maybe need reassurance from me?

I sit up resting my arms on my legs and she opens her eyes. She smiles softly at me and immediately stops playing.

"Good morning dream lover" she smiles

"Good morning nightingale" I smile back "why are you all the way over there instead of here next to me?" I ask

"I was awake early so I thought I'd practice for a bit" she says "I didn't wake you did I?" She asks

"Not at all" I say "any chance your man can get a kiss and a cuddle this morning?" I ask opening my arms

"I think I can manage that" she smiles walking over to the bed and climbing into my open arms. She press a sweet lingering kiss to my lips before nuzzling into me and letting out a soft sigh

"What's on your mind baby?" I ask

"You" she says "and how good being with you feels"

"Are you sure that's all?" I ask kissing her hair

"Why what else would there be?" She asks looking up at me

"When I heard you singing it made me wonder if......."

"If I was singing about you?" She asks cutting me off and I nod "Yes in some small way, I'm afraid because somehow I know that losing you will hurt more than all the others......because you mean more to me"

"I've told you I'm not going anywhere" I say pulling her close "I'm not like them, I'm not going to find some lame ass excuse to leave. I know in my heart that we can make this work because we have something worth fighting for"

"I know you have and I know your not like them" she says "but I've never............with you it's so different and that's what sacres me........I'm scared of losing you but I'm more scared of you sticking around because I don't know how to do forever, I've only ever done goodbyes"

"Well that makes two of us and we can figure it out together as we go" I soothe "don't be scared baby, I only ever want you to be happy"

Libbie looks up at me her eyes filled with fear and sadness as she cups my cheek running her finger tips over my beard. She turns herself and straddles my lap wrapping herself around me before pressing another sweet lingering kiss to my lips.

I wrap my arms tightly around her and pull her close as I kiss her back and I can feel her trembling.

"I...... I.......I really like you alot" she whispers

"I like you alot too" I reply keeping her close

Libbie POV

Looking in Damian's eyes right now, I knew the moment was right, perfect even but I just couldn't bring myself to say the words, they just stuck in my throat and I had to swallow them back down.

I'm scared because I love you - why is that so hard to say?

I snuggle back into him saying nothing further. He kisses my hair as his hands gently stroke my back. I listen to his heart beat hoping the sound will relax me but it doesn't work.

"You're trembling baby, are you cold?" He asks

"Yeah I little" I lie, a little white lie won't hurt right?

In one swift movement he pulls me back into bed and under the covers holding me even close to him and making me giggle.

"There we go now I can keep you warm" he says nuzzling into me "and maybe get my boxers back too" he chuckles as he kisses my neck

"No can do I've claimed them now" I chuckle "you'll just have to go without"

"Or I could wear yours" he smirks

"Yeah right" I laugh and to my suprise he let's go of me and gets out the bed. I watch him in all his naked glory walk over to our discarded clothes and pick up my lace thong.

My mouth drops open as he steps into it and slowly pulls it up his legs until he is in fact wearing my underwear.

"Well damn" Is all I can manage to say as he turns and wiggles his ass at me