Our Song ON HOLD

30. Useless

Damian POV

I was slowly but surely going out of my mind. I had tried everything I could think of to try and help Libbie relax but nothing had worked.
Instead I had watched her pace anxiously around the house, not just the room, the entire god damn house, after that she had decided to go in the pool and just floated on a lilo staring at the ceiling.

She hadn't said a word to me since we got back from the hospital yesterday and during the night I would reach for her and it would feel like she was getting further and further away from me.

Right now she she was sat at the far side of the pool gazing out of one of the glass panes of the pool house. I watch as her shoulders rise and fall in what is clearly a sigh and all I feel is completely and utterly useless. I couldn't get her to relax, I couldn't make her feel better and worse I couldn't even make her smile.

I love her beyond words but right now it felt like she wasn't even mine.
Slowly I walk over to her and place a cup of herbal tea infront of her. She looks at the cup and then looks up at me.

"Thank you" she says quietly

"Mi amor I'm going out of my mind" I say sitting beside her "You're with me but you're a million miles away, you don't speak you just stare into space. Please tell me what I need to do? How can I help you?"

"I'm sorry mi amante de ensueño" she says taking hold of my hand "I just.........I can't relax until I know. I'm so scared this won't work"

"First of all it sounds so much sexier when you call me dream lover in spanish" I smile and she blushes lightly "secondly it's natural to be scared, I'm scared to but I'm choosing to believe it's going to work because it's you and me and we work perfectly"

"Yeah we do don't we" she smiles as she leans onto me and I wrap my arm lovingly around her kissing her hair softly "I never thought I'd be here you know...........I wrote an entire LP of songs about my kids, for my kids that I thought was going to remain in a box in my closet and now..........now I might just be able to sing them"

"Baby you will be able to sing them" I say "and when you hold our baby in your arms for the first time you might even be inspired to write even more songs"

"You are amazing, I wish I could look at things the way you do" she says moving the cup to one side, to my suprise she moves so she's straddling my lap, I gently caress her thighs as she looks down into my eyes as her hands cup my face.

Slowly she bring her face down to mine and our lips meet. It's gentle and loving at first but quickly becomes intense. I feel her start to push me back but I'm all too aware of exactly where we are sat and I try to stop her.

"Lib.....mi amor.....Lib" I say between kisses but either she doesn't hear me or she's choosing to ignore me and before I can do anything to stop it we both fall backwards into the pool with a huge splash.

Coming up to the surface I move my hair out of my face and wipe my eyes, Libbie looks at me and both start laughing as I move through the water towards her.

"I tried to warn you" I laugh as I take hold of her hips and pull her towards me "it's good to see you laugh though, I've missed your smile"

"It feels good to laugh" she says wrapping her legs around me and for a moment we just stay still in the water looking at each other, it's only then I remember we are both fully clothed and I look at her with a smirk.

"Someone was lazy this morning huh?" I smirk "not that I'm complaining"

"What?..........oh that will teach me to wear a white top with no bra" she laughs "but you can't talk, I can tell from the way your shirt is clinging to you that you've been in the gym today"

"How else will I stay looking this good" I smirk and she laughs

"Come one let's get out of here and out of these wet clothes" she says pecking my lips

"Hmm I like your thinking mi amor" I say as I move us to the side of the pool keeping tight hold of her

"Mr Priest are you trying to seduce me?" She asks jokingly

"Well Miss Foster I don't really think I need to try do I?" I smirk as I trap her between my body and the pool edge and begin kissing her neck "because I can always feel that you want me, just like you do now"

"So sure of yourself" she chuckles before pushing me back suddenly and getting out of the pool "you'll have to catch me first, I'm going to make you work for it" she smirks before taking off running into the house

"Oh I'm going to catch you mi amor and when I do you won't be leaving our bed for the rest of the day" I call out before running after her.

Right now she was relaxed, happy and laughing and I was going to everything in my power to make that last as long as possible.