Our Song ON HOLD

21. Pain

Libbie POV

Laying on my hotel room bed I felt lost and alone. I had cried so much my eyes were puffy, my throat was sore and my chest hurt, it literally ached. Just when I thought I had no tears left to cry I new wave would hit and I would just lay here as the sobs shook my body.

When my other relationships had ended it had hurt but nothing like this, I had never felt this kind of pain before I didn't even know it existed. I had no idea that some one could hurt you this much, that their words could cut so deep.

I had made only one phone call since I got here after that I had ignored my phone, I had numerous missed calls and messages from Damian but I had nothing to say to him and no desire to hear anything he had to say.

"Lib sweetie I'm here" Delilah says as she comes to sit beside me "how are you doing?"

"It hurts Del.....it hurts so bad" I sob "I thought for sure this time I'd done it.......that I had found what I had been looking for but I was right he's no different"

"I'm mad at him for hurting you like this but I don't think he meant it Lib" she soothes "that man adores you, I really think he said something in anger that he didn't really mean"

"Oh he meant it alright.......you didn't hear him" I say "I.........."

"Sweet Cheeks?"

"Caladen Hartley I told you to stay away" Delilah says standing up from the bed "now is not the time for this"

"Cal what are you doing here?" I ask

"Oh sweet cheeks what did he do to you?" He says ignoring Delilah and coming over and taking me in his arms but I don't reciprocate

"I ask you a question first Cal" I say pushing him back

"I saw the removal truck outside your place, I'm went in to talk to you and I heard Del talking to you" he said "she had you on speaker and well I had to come and be here for you. You may not love me anymore but we were friends way before we became more........we were best friends.......don't you remember?"

"Yeah I remember" I say "it's not that I don't love you I just don't love you that way...........not the way I love him"

"I know........and he doesn't deserve your love" he says "now as your friend I want to make you an offer...........what your planning to do, let me do it with you, let me be the father.........it has to be better than a stranger"

"I......I appreciate the offer but I'm in no mind to think about it right now" I say "let me have time to think everything through I can't make any decisions right now"

"Lib I know your hurting right now but I also know that in your heart you know what you want" Delilah says "don't make any rash decisions please"

"I won't" I say

Right now I was conflicted Cal was right we had been best friends before we tried to become more. We had met the night of my accident, he had been on his way home when he saw the wreckage, he pulled over and he sat and talked to me until the ambulance arrived. He accompanied me to the hospital and stayed with me though he didn't have to.

He even sat with me when they came to tell me my dad hadn't survived the accident. After that he became my rock and he was there for me whenever I needed him, I guess somewhere along the line I had confused the love I felt for him as a friend with being in love.

"You ok there sweet cheeks?" He asks

"Yeah I'm good........damnit I wish he'd stop calling me" I sigh as Damians name flashes up on my screen

"I'll deal with him" Cal says reaching for my phone

"No you won't" Delilah snaps snatching the phone before he can get it and leaving the room.

Damian POV

I had been calling Libbie constantly since she walked out, I wanted to know if she was alright, if she was safe, where she was. I wanted to tell her how sorry I was that I didn't mean what I said. I wanted to tell her that I love her more than life and that I miss her so much already.

"Hey Big guy" Delilah says answering the phone

"Del? Where's Libbie? Did she fly back to North Carolina?" I ask

"No she's still in Florida, she's in a hotel" she says "I have a bad feeling she's going to make a real bad decision so I'm going to tell you where she is becuase you need to get here fast and talk to her"

"What do you mean bad decision?" I ask "she's not going to hurt herself is she?"

"No of course not......Cal is here" she says lowering her voice "he's offered to be the father of her child and she's actually going to consider it"

"No.....no he can't......I'm supposed to be the father.........I want to be the father" I gasp "this can't be happening"

"Well it will if you don't get your ass here and talk to her" she says "She is so hurt right now she is not thinking straight, we can't let him worm his way back in, I don't trust him, I've never trusted him.......something about him always seemed off"

"Del what aren't you telling me?" I ask "is he dangerous"

"I don't know for sure........I have my suspicions but I've never been able to prove anything" she says "I just know we need to keep him away from her"

"I'm on my way don't let her go anywhere with her and don't tell her I'm coming" I say "I need to talk to her........I need her to listen to me............I can't live my life without her"

"See you soon big man" she says