Quench My Desire

It's OKAY To Not be Okay ✨

In one go I spoke, but this man just doesn't give me time to speak out. He stopped.

Jungkook Pov ..

Jungkook : take leave for a day from the office.
Y/n eyes are no widen
And she said why?

Jungkook : I wanna make love. You know what you're a teaser you always let me kiss your neck and face and sometimes I'm grabbing your breast or maybe unbuttoning you. At this rate we will never be able to do anything.

What did I just say tho?

Y/n Pov ..

Listening to him makes me feel guilty but WHAT THE HELL?
WHATEVER HE JUST SAID IS SOMETHING SO STUPID. I DON'T LIKE IT ALL. THE WAY HE EXPLAINED EVERYTHING. THO I KNOW ITS HIS DESIRE TO COMPLETE HIS DESIRE BUT HE SHOULD KNOW THAT I DON'T WANT THAT THATS WHY I AM A TURN OVER ALL THE FUCKING TIME. AAAAAH.

Jungkook : why are you screaming???

AND THIS BULKY MAN IS STILL ON THE TOP ME. IS HE REALISING IT EVEN OR NOT?

Y/n : oh god Jungkook, you know what I always have reasons for not doing so and so. Please, I don't wanna do what you want me to do. I'm sorry please don't gare me. I am just too sensitive for this happening. I am very new to it. And it kind of hurts me also by looking in the past of what I had seen. Please, just don't force me to do any such thing against my will until it's too late.  Please get that and now please get off me you're heavy and I'm in pain. I'm sorry and good night have a sweet night but not the wrong way.

Jungkook Pov ..

While she was speaking I was looking at her all the time not realising what I am even doing. I feel bad but yes it's a basic human want right?
But I got her point there, that sexual need is not everything. But I'm just done with everything... so how would I??? How would I let go of the things I haven't done with someone with 'love'. It's  not my luck in this birth...

And what did she exactly mean by "in the past?" Did something serious happen to her??

Well, her past is like a mystery to me and her looks are unpredictable.

So I got off her body. She might be smiling internally.

Jungkook : can I ask you something?
Y/n : yes
Jungkook : what do you mean to by past like you know when you said...

Y/n Pov ..

Aha, I got what he is trying to say. But shall I tell him?

Jungkook Pov ..

I see she has now started firming tears in her eyes. Maybe it was seriously bad and maybe she is just being too sensitive.

Jungkook : hey, don't cry. You can tell me love. You can trust me. Tell me what happened? Why you keep crying? It makes my feel like you are never got a chance to cry in front of anyone and you always used to cry alone at night.

Y/n Pov ..

Why is he so perfect in reading people? He is too accurate there.

I thought that I should tell him atleast he is listening to me and I will finally be able to get over of all of my grudges that are also affecting my mental health.

Y/n : jung-jungkook
Jungkook : yes y/n, tell me
Y/n : I-i, the reason why I...

I thing that kow there is no need to stuck I should just tell him and get over with. It's a drama otherwise.

Y/n : it's nothing, but just I have seen my parents maytimes mating and you-you kn-know that when I used to go into the room where they used to do it it was usually had to happen at night and I don't know how my skeep used to break at night when I was only maybe in between the years 10 to maybe 15 or 14. It's not like I don't like those stuffs its just that I'm scared like my parents. They used to mate too and they used to fight too it must be hurting especially for a woman. It affects a lot they regret for their stupid submission. I-i

Then I busted into more tears.

Jungkook is now hugging me and I am hugging him back tighter and I was just crying, crying and crying.

And then Jungkook said ..

Jungkook : they maybe didn't understand each other before marriage.
Y/n : it's not just that Kookie, they also ruined one of their kid's life which is non other than me. It's just me who raised herself up without getting checked on my mental health.
Jungkook : I relate amor. But I think that its all over you should be over that too
Y/n : how kookie? They are my fucking parents. Who ruined me, my confidence and everything which is not even expressible. I was always a very shy, innocent and get-easily-to-be-scared type of a kid. And I am still bit a very less of it. But that trait will never end you know that. It's like a trauma.
Jungkook : I can just say, that stay the way you're. You're perfect and adorable and I really adore the day I saw at the bar and in my dreams. You know. I always had that in me that you always had something in your heart that you always are hiding about it. I just wanted you to let it out. Omit it to me. You're secrets your stories are safe here with me. Come to me anything Y/n, my love I'm always there for you. I love you, want to know why?

I nodded.

Jungkook : because I see my whole universe in you, whenever I am around you except that I feel problems down there, but I always feel like a homer got a home for real this time. The moment you entered in my , my life was filled with joy. I don't know all the stories about you. But I know that whatever you have gone through, your pain was real. I know mind and us don't get along sometimes. And it is hard to breath, but you wouldn't change your life.

Y/n : Jungkook, I- I love you too.

Jungkook : is it because I comforted you or for real?
Y/n : you always have *sniffed the nose* you always have that respect for me in my heart and I love you for that- I mean-

Smash, kissing me deep on my lips and here I'm too sync. While crying happy tears.

A/n
The longest ever. Complete this chapter in 2-3 days hahahahha!!! I hope you like spread my story more ✨🩷
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