warnings: overthinking, slight angst to happy ending, cursing.
words: 1.2k
I sigh whilest leaning myself back against the drivers seat off my car.
My nerves were quiet litterly racing through my body as i look at the trainingscenter off the man united womans team.
'Come on y/n/n, you can do this, you will do great,' i try to encourage myself as i noticed i started overthinking once i saw a lot off girls walking towards the entrance
My soul escaped body when i hear a knock on the car window, i look to the left, seeing that one off the girls was standing there.
After seeing all the other girls pas, i did not expect one off them to stop at my car door.
She signaled for me to role down the window.
' hey there new one.' She greets, i recocnized her as one off the defenders, maya le tissier.
'Are you going to sit here all day or did you want to walk inside and meet the others?' She asks.
I turn bright red before stuttering my answer,' i, will go inside, sorry,' after noticing how nervous i was, she started smiling at me, her eyes softened.
'I can walk with you if you want?' She offers me, i let my thoughts run through my head again, maybe she thought i was trying to waste her time if i said yes.
'Hey, it is fine if you are nervous, it is your first time here and i would gladly help you out.' I smile at her,
'now that is what i would like to see now come on, lets get you out off the car and lets go inside,' she complimented me and cheered me on, she really knew how to get me to stop overthinking, maybe everything was going to be alright.
Due to the sudden change off emotions i had not noticed that i had grabbed her hand in slight support, or that she was looking at me with a bright smile on her face, she opens the door for me with her other hand.
'Here, i will help you introduce yourself, these two are katie zelem and millie turner.' She introduces me to the two woman who seemed slightly familiar.
'Hey there i am katie,' the brunnet intriduces herself, ' what is your name?' In that moment both me and maya realized i had not even introduced myself to her yet.
'Oh,' i clear my troath, ' my name is y/n y/l/n,' i introsuced myself slowly shaking her hand.
Shit, i curse myself, i probably had sweaty hands or something like that, maybe they were disgusted with me, stupid.
'Y/n, it is a very pretty name indeed,' i hear maya compliment me.
I snap back into reality, maya having a small frown on her face.
'Hey, are you alright?' Maya asks after having me pulled with her towards a more quiet room without any persons near or in it
'What do you mean?' I ask, not really knowing what she could be talking about.
'You keep zoning out the whole time in the last hour i have met you you look hurt and scared,' maya explains.
Why did she notice it, did she think i was weird now?
'See, now you are doing it again, you are overthinking are you not?' I nod my head, quilt written all over my face.
'I am so sorry-,' before i could apolegize further, maya pulls me in a tight and comforting hug.
Her arms holding onto me like i was something that could just slip and break into a million pieces.
Her head was planted between my shoulder and neck.
'Do not apoligize y/n, please,' she begs befire pulling her head away from my shoulder so that she could face me.
'I wan tyoh to know that you should not think about stuff like that, people are not actually looking at you and if they do, you should not give a singel fuck about it, alright?' I nod, getting teary eyed.
Instead of calling myself weak, i realized there was no voice that said something negative.
'And what i want you to do if you feel like that, is that you come to me so that i can help you or hug you, just whatever you need from me in that momentm do you understand?' She quiet litterly orders.
I nod, not looking her in the eyes, she lifts my chin up before repeating, ' do you understand?'
I gulp bravely answering, ' yes, i understand, if i feel like that i will come to you,' she felt proudm i thought when i saw her eyes sparkel whilest scanning my face
'Now come on, lets meet the other girls,' she grabs my hand before leading me to them and introducing me.
'Now all thats left today is to get you home and get some sleep,' maya whispers in my ear after a triring afternoon.
I try to cover and muffle my jawn by pressing ny hand against my mouth, but maya was not having any off it.
'Come on, i will take you home in your car iff you give ne your adress.' I nod, giving her my adress, not wanting to drive due to how tired i was.
'Love, you are currently staying in a hotel room?' She asks confused
'Yes, i have not found a place to stay yet, why, do you ask?' She still looks at me with slight concern.
'Oh no love, you are going to stay with me until you have found a place alright,' i wanted to protest, but the look she gave me just told me to shut up, so i just nodded.
'Good girl,' i hear her mutter under her breath.
My breath hitched, could i like her more then just teammates or friends, what was it that i was feeling?
A few weeks later
Everything had been going well with nearly everything, physicly mentally and with maya, everything was going so great that for the past few weeks i had not had a 'overthinking attack'
Well except for today.
Today i felt like everyone was watching me, that every pass went wrong, that it just would not work and despite being able to defend pretty good, it just was not good today.
'Maya,' i croak, tesrs welling up in my eyes whilest trying to find her.
I run towards her car in the parking lot, to my luck still seeing her despite her already being done.
'Hey, hey calm down, what is it my love?' She wraps me in her arms, securing me, making sure was feeling safe and comfterball.
'It just would not work today, not with strenght, not with passing, nothing,' she holds me while i just cry in her arms, never feeling mire safe then this.
'I understand darling,' she hushes me, ' come home with me, we can sleep or just watch a movie cuddeled up on my couch.' She says.
I nod, letting my eyes flicker from her eyes to her mouth, without thinking i press my lips against hers, thanking her for everything she keeps doing for me.
She helps me buckle up in the car seat before pressing another kiss against my cheek.
She grabs my hand before muttering;
' i love you too darling.'
