Pairing: Jennifer hermoso x alexia puttelas x f!reader
Warnings: hurt, miscomunication, angst, jelousy, slight fluff at the end.
Friends to strangers to (maybe) lovers
Words: 1.6k
I loved them, i love them so freaking much that my heart had started to ache.
ache whenever i saw then, ache whenever i even thought about them, it ached when a smell reminded me off them.
When i was alone, i needed them, the neediness worsend my aching heart, which was slowly poisening me by each beat.
Poisening me with the worst poisens off them all,'love.
It weakend me, distracted me, made me feel naseous and dizzy until the point of throwing up.
It was killing me, slowly, painfully.
It left burned and numb holes inside me.
A part time medicine that prevented this for some time was dating other people.
These relationships did not last long, most off them were also not ready to settle down but dealth with it in a more immature way, they either cheated or just left without a word.
Ussualy taking another piece out off ny heart.
But the only one making me feel less like shit was jean, my bestfriend who recently joined our barca side.
'Morning hun,' i smile as i hear jean's voice purr in my ear.
'Come on you need to get out off bed,' she tries to rip me out off bed.
'Fine i am coming,' i pull myself out off bed.
'Are you sure you should go to the party?' I frown at jean's sudden change off mood.
'Yes i will be fine,' i look at her, the questions running through my mind.
She looked just irritated.
'Oke i am going to get ready i guess.' She just walks away.
I just shrug off her weird tone before quickly changing and getting in the car.
Somehow it took her another fifteen minutes before she was done, and i was angry to say the least.
'I have been telling you about this since a month ago.' She roles her eyes in annoyance.
'You know how important this is for me right?' She nods.
Not if you are going to spend it crying over alexia and jenni,' she mjmbles angrily under her breath.
'What?' I spin my head her way
'What?' She mimicks me,' do not act like you want to rip your heart out any time you see them,' she yells
'Why have you been acting like you are my partner all off a sudden?' I yell back.
She looks down, eyes filled with quilt.
'I am sorry, i just,' she sighs.' I just know about your history off people cheating on you or hurting you and you have been thinking a lot about them again,' she apolegizes.
I blink away the tears that were starting to form in my eyes, i interwine my hand with hers, resting it on her lap while she strokes it.
The rest off the car ride was spent in a comfterball silence, which gave me time to think.
I mean, did i really look like i wanted to rip my heart out the second i saw them?
I mean i thought i got over them a little bit, because jean had be supporting me, but still it felt like something was missing, something big.
