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Lost beginning

Chapter 33

Lost beginning

I lost the contact with the person I had feeling for and it made everything even more difficult. I really wanted to call him to explain myself but the thing of me being pathetic and low won't change the facts.

I told Lisa the whole story and she was supportive but it couldn't change anything.

I went to the kitchen to get the bottle of relief for myself. Its looked as a good chance to one more time lay low the glass was filled with the liquid and I wanted to take a sip but I was honestly. I took the bottle throwing it into the trash. The glass was in the sink, the vodka was falling down the drain.

I can't do this anymore. I was destroying my life myself. I wanted to stay normal and if he didn't give me a chance to tell him all the truth that I should leave for myself.

I went straight to bed, falling asleep, emotionless as always, that seemed to be healthy finally in my life.

The morning was filled with many calls. Lisa and Mina were calling for several hours and I threw the phone out of the room, landing on the wall of the hall. It went silent.

I wanted a calm morning, enough of these games, I needed to get the grip.

I went to the kitchen making coffee and only then realised that I was so sleepy that threw the phone. It seemed to be damaged but okay.

I turned it on and left on charger.

The gloomy morning freshened my outlook. I got a sandwich with salad and good morning music playlist on.

The loud bang on the door was heard from afar.

I went to the doors with the sandwich.

The door was opened and Lisa with Mina and some bag ran into the flat to see me healthy and okay.

I was chewing the morning sandwich with big eyes and annoyed look.

-Are u kidding me? Can u ever enter like normal people?

I asked looking at them.

-Are u okay? I though u were drinking again.

Lisa came up smelling me.

-Me too. I was so worried after yesterday.

Mina hugged me warmly, taking my sandwich and eating it.

-Hey, it mine. Yes, I told that I fucked up but it's enough of me crying over a boy. He didn't want to listen to me, his problem.

-Bad girl.

Lisa added, placing the bags on the table near the doors.

-Come on, I have more sandwiches.

We had a good breakfast and discussed the rest details and the girls helped me to pack my things to get ready.

We left soon for the airport and as I organised everything we got the seats together.

I went for Ledges and big, fluffy socks over and Ugg slippers. The top was tight and beige and hoodie over the top.

I had a binnie on my head from Lover boy. I saw that one on 'hyunjin and ordered at once.

We sat in the airplane. Lisa and Mina was fighting again over the menu. I smiled.

-This burger is shit.

Lisa argued.

-No, this is better than that pasta u want!

-Ew, have u tried that mead, disgusting.