Too Far Apart

Chapter 16

*2 weeks later*
Today is my mom's funeral Tony has given these past few weeks off to mourn and plan her funeral.

She is getting buried right on top of my dad, that's the way they wanted it so that's what I paid for. I am in a black dress with a black hat and veil.

I have been in tears off and on these past few weeks, my mom gave me everything, the house, the cars, the animals the furniture, just everything cause I am the only kid she has, and she never remarried or even dated after dad died. "You ready?" I heard Jay's voice as I looked at myself in the mirror.

"I think so." I looked at him, his hair was combed back and he had a black suit on. "You're not going to wear makeup?" He grabbed my hand, "That's unusual for you." He said, "I know, but it's just going to get messed up by my tears." My eyes already started to water.

I grabbed the note she wrote me and put it in my black clutch. I had the rings that she gave me on my fingers, and I'm wearing some of her black heels, the ones she wore to my dad's funeral.

"Alright let's go." I put my veil down. Jay grabbed my hand and walked me down the stairs where everyone was. Everyone was in black and kind of kept their heads low, when they saw me.

Jay and I still aren't together but he's been here for me at all hours of the day these past weeks.

"Alright guys, let's go." I said and they all nodded. Toni drove herself, Juice, Jay, and the Gunns, and Nicks mom drove herself, Nick, Blake, Jordan and I. The boys sat in the back and I sat in the front. We drove straight to the service and there were a lot of people there. After this she is going to be taken to the burial ground and it's just gonna be the people she was closest to, who watch's her get buried.

We sat in the front as I was supposed to make a speech. The pastor prayed over her body and then everyone did speech's, Shayna did one, Nick did one, some of my mom's family did some and then I was the final one.

I walked up the steps and placed a kiss on my mom's head. "Good afternoon everyone." I said.

"As you all should know, I am this lovely woman's daughter, I lost my dad when I was 10, I'm 20 now, so my mom died 10 years after he did. I was away on the road when I got a call from one of my friends, Blake, he called and told me that I needed to come home, he said it was something to do with my mom, I rushed home but when I got there the doctor told me the devastating news, my mom had died from a heart attack, I went home and went into her room to just be comfortable with the smell, the smell of my mom's perfume that she wore all the time, but I saw a little box on her bed and in that box were my parents wedding rings, and this note." I pulled the note out of my clutch.

"This is what the note said,
"Dear My Sweet Chloe,
If you're reading this, I'm dead, I have been having heart complications for years now but now it's in the final stages, and with dad dead, and you gone, and off on your beautiful career, I'm not needed anymore, I stopped taking my medication a week ago, I am going to be with your dad now, I wrote a will, and I left everything to you, please take care of yourself and our home, I love you so much baby girl. Let Nick, Blake, Jordan and all of your friends that I love them, and for them to take of you.

Love mom."" I paused for a second and took a deep breath. "My mom was the sweetest person I have ever met, when I was struggling with addiction she was there for me she didn't criticize me, she supported me in my decision to get clean. She was my best friend and I love her so much, and she never truly got over my dad's death she only stayed on this earth for me, and well now I'm off on my own, and she's with my dad." I started to cry.

"I love you mama, rest easy." I said and walked back down to Shayna. I cried as she hugged me. The service is over now and everyone started leaving. Once everyone left they loaded her up and we went to the burial grounds.

It was just Nick, Shayna, Jordan, Blake, Toni, Juice, the Gunns, Jay and I who watched her get buried. We each put a red rose on top of her casket, and I cried as they started lowering her in the ground.

Jay held me the whole time so I wouldn't fall and before they started covering her and dad again I said through the tears "Goodbye mommy, goodbye daddy."

While they covered them I cried into Jays neck and wrapped my arms around him and he wrapped his arms around me.

When we were leaving Blake pulled me to the side. "Hey, I don't want to cause any drama but are you dating Jay?" He asked, "No, but he's been here for me more than anyone these past few weeks, why?" I asked, "Just the way you two look at each other, but it's whatever, let's go, they're waiting for us." He said and walked away. I fallowed him but he decided to go with Toni. "Jay since he's going with them, you can come with us." Nick said, and Jay nodded.

We all left and went to a cafe for brunch. "After this Jordan and I have to leave, cause we have a few GCW events we are working." Blake said and I nodded. "Yeah, Austin and I have to go as well cause Tony needs us." Colten said. "Yeah Tony called us as well." Toni pointed at her and Juice. "Yeah I got that call as well." Nick said.

Then I looked at Jay. "What about you?" I asked. "No I don't have to go back for a few more weeks." He said "Cool, neither do I, well you're welcome to stay at my house." I smiled and he nodded.

Once we were done Shayna dropped Jay and I off at my house, then she drove Blake and Jordan to the airport, and the others already left to the airport.

When we got home, I showered and got into an oversized shirt and some fuzzy socks. I laid down and then Jay knocked on the door. "Come in." I said and he walked in.

"How are you doing?" He asked. "Good, come lay down, I can't be alone right now." I said and raised his eyebrows. "Jay just lay down, I have a king size bed, it's not like we're going to be touching." I said and he did what I said.

We started scrolling through our phones then I sat up. "You okay?" He asked. "I don't know, I want to talk to my mom and tell her everything that I'm feeling, but I can't, I can't talk to her anymore." I started to cry.

"Hey it's okay, I'm here for you, Clo, baby, I'm here for you, it's okay to cry, just let it out." He hugged me. "What did you call me?" I asked. "It doesn't matter right now, why don't we get your mind off of this, let's go do something." He tried to get me up. I wouldn't budge, instead I just pulled him on top of me and kissed him. He pulled away and smiled at me before he continued to kiss me.

No one was here to interrupt us this time so Jay took his time and kissed me passionately. He slid his hand up my leg and turned us over so now he was sitting up and I was on his lap. His hand slid up over my panties and under my shirt, he left his hands on my hips as he continued to kiss me.

After a while he stopped, I looked at him with a confused expression, "Are you sure you want to do this again?" He asked and I nodded. "Okay." He kissed me again.