My Husband's Rival

MHR : 46

CHAPTER 46

EIRLYS

                 I DIDN'T CARE if I left my boutique unlocked. Ang importante lang sakin ngayon ay ang makaalis sa lugar na ‘yon kung nasaan si Xelios.

I can't let him see me like this. I can't let him see me crying my heart out because of what just happened.

I didn't plan to keep him with me, yes! But fuck! I have feelings for him already. I am in love with him... I love him. That's why part of me wants him for myself because I thought he wants me for himself, too.

Hindi ako nagagalit dahil sa kinasal siya at may anak din. Hindi ako nagagalit dahil sa tinago niya sakin ang mga ‘yon! Nagagalit at nanghihinayang ako dahil parang wala lang sakanya ang lahat. Dahil kung umakto siya ay parang wala lang lahat...

I drove my car as fast as I can papunta kina Daddy. I don't care kung makita man nila akong mukhang miserable. I don't care if my brother will see me like this! I'm not going home to Draven!

Oh, God. I used to go to Xelios' place when everything felt so heavy... but now, Xelios was one of those people who puts pressure on me. Who puts the weight that I am carrying!

When I reached home, I tried so bad to calm myself because I'm worried that my family will notice. But no matter how hard I try to calm myself, wala itong epekto sakin. I'm shaking and I couldn't stop my tears.

In the end, I decided to go inside the house. Bahala na kung anong iisipin nila!

I was walking with my head down because I can hear my family chitchatting at the living room. Sana ay hindi nila ako mapansin!

"Oh, Eirlys!"

Shit.

Tumango lang ako.

"Eirlys, saan ka pupunta? Dito ka na muna." It was my sister's voice.

"N-no. Uhm, I want to rest—"

"What happened?" Napatalon ako sa gulat nang may magsalita sa harapan ko.

It was Kuya Spiro! He's in front of me and he saw the damn tears in my eyes.

"Why are you crying?"

Umiling ako agad to deny. "Wala, Kuya. May problem lang, but I'm okay. I just need to rest."

I can't even look at him directly into his eyes. Lumilihis ang mga mata ko dahil baka makita niya ang ilang sa mga mata ko.

Ano namang sasabihin ko sakanya o sakanila kung sakali? That I am crying dahil sa kabit ko? Na nasasaktan ako kahit na wala namang tamang rason para masaktan dahil tama naman siya?!

"You're not telling me the truth. What is it, Eirlys?"

I felt so pressured because of what he's doing to me. Parang sa ano mang oras ay sasabog ang emosyon ko.

I felt so full and drained, okay?! Punong puno na ako dahil sa mga nalaman ko. That Xelios' wife died because of my husband and his family! That he has a son! That he used me, too!

Wala akong karapatang magalit dahil ginamit ko rin naman siya! Wala rin akong karapatang magalit dahil karapatan niyang hindi sabihin sakin ang mga parteng 'yon!

At kung sakaling malaman ko, I will still choose him to be my paramour if he want!

Wala siyang kasalanan. He just want to take his revenge. Gusto niya lang gumanti. Losing a wife is a different level. I can't blame Xelios. Because I'm doing the same. I've done the same. But in my case, it is for my son.