Collision

Reality

Dani POV

I wake up and realise my head is on something hard, as I look up I see Chris's face. Oh god I slept with Chris. I see his sleeping face and allow myself a moment to rest in his arms, to think about how good it feels to be here with him
And how last night was by far the best night of my life but then he moves slightly and reality kicks in. My sister is dead, my parents are suddenly acting like they care and I just slept with my best friend so I could forget about my dead sister. What the hell is wrong with me?

I slowly creep out of his arms and grab my clothes before making my way into the living room. I can't even leave this is my house, I start to pace in my kitchen. What am I going to do? I could have just ruined the only good thing I have left. As I keep pacing I hear my bedroom door open and footsteps coming towards me. I turn and busy myself by making a coffee.
I feel him behind, his arm wrapping around my waist. I allow myself to sink into him just for a moment.
"Morning" he whispers as he kisses my neck.

I pull away and clear my throat "good morning. Coffee?"
"Please. How you feeling?" I don't turn to look at him, just keep my head down and concentrate on the coffee.
"I'm ok"
"Dani look at me please?"
I slowly turn and I see the worry in his face "Dani? Do you......what happened......"
"Chris" I shake my head "I needed comfort last night and you gave me that. I'm grateful but....."I take a deep breathe "maybe we shouldn't have crossed that line"

I see the hurt in his face instantly and he nods "ok. I'll just go grab my stuff"
"Chris" I call after him but he is already behind my bedroom door. What did I do? What am I doing? I don't want to lose him. As I stand and worry, I see Chris grab his shoes and walk past the kitchen.
"Chris please wait"
"It's okay dani, I'm glad I could comfort you"
He turns to walk away but I hold onto his arm "chris please" I sniffle "I can't loose you too"

He turns and pulls me close, wrapping his arms around me "your not loosing me dani, I just wanna go home and shower and I think we need a little space. But I'm here for you, you just have to call and I'll be here okay"
I nod against his chest as he holds me close, he pulls away kissing my head and closing the door behind him. I know he's right so why do I feel empty now he's gone.

Chris POV

As soon as I get home I see Scott waiting for me in the kitchen.
"Hey, how is she?"
I shake my head and run my hands down my face "I'm an Idiot Scott"
"Why? What happened?"
"We slept together last night"
"What? How?"
"She was upset and I was comforting her and one thing lead to another and now she wants to forget it and I'm completely screwed"
"Chris you've been in love with this girl from the moment you met her. How did you think this would go? She is grieving her sister not a great time to be sleeping with the girl"

"I know okay. Just don't Scott. I think I've just ruined one of the best friend ships I've ever had"
"Do you think you should tell her how you feel?"
I shake my head "it won't help right now Scott, you and Gracie are the only people who know, knew. I don't know. I just know right now we are all trying to figure out a life without Grace and I don't want to complicate it more"