The past that broke me

Chapter 3

⭐️ - Tessa's point of view - ⭐️

" what happened at home that you can't stay there " I feel the color draining from my face " I don't want to talk about okay " and I really don't want to talk about nobody knows and I want to stay like that. What happened just happened and I hate my self for it. " I'm sorry " I look at Hardin " it's fine " after a while we arrived at my home and I get out of the car and take the front door keys and open the door. I turn around" you can come in " I smile at Hardin and put on the lights in the hallway.

" it's a beautiful house it's bigger then our house" I smile and walk into the livingroom. I never thought I would trust anyone after the incident but then he came   But I still can't tell him and what if I do tell him. He will probably thinks I'm disgusting or he leaves and tell everyone about it  " Tessa you alright" I feel his hand on my arms and feel a weird feeling. " yeah I'm fine why" I look at him he's worried I can see it " your crying Tess " I feel with my hand on my cheeks I did cried.

" come sit down I can feel there is something wrong" I take his hand and walk towards the couch and sit down. " what's wrong Tess your so how do I say it without being a jerk how does it come your afraid of my dad and me at first and other men" I look at him and I already knew this day would come. I can't do this alone anymore before the police got me he told I can't talk about it with anyone they wouldn't believe me. " I can't tell you Hardin you wouldn't believe me that's  what he said" I look down and feel him lifting up my chin so I have to look at him  " try me I'm not going anywhere I promise" I feel tears coming down my cheeks no one have ever said that to me. I tried to talk to my mom about but couldn't find the words to say it.

I feel Hardin taking my hand and kiss it slowly" take your time Tess " I smile at his words. Where should I start at the beginning or at the moment it happened I think at the beginning. " uhm my mother and my dad where fighting a lot so my mom told my dad that he need to leave and without hesitation he did it. They day he left he told me it wasn't our fault and that they weren't meant to be after a couple days we moved in with some guy my mom was dating at the time. I call it more cheating " I look at Hardin who nods for me to continue.

" within a couple weeks our old house was empty and we living in his house at first everything was alright nothing weird but after a while we couldn't see our father my stepdad told us he never loved us and doesn't want to see us of course a girl at age 10 is believing it because she trusted him " I look at Hardin at see his face became pale I can see that he knows where I'm going " what do you mean with we " I take
My necklace in my hands and smile a bit " I had a younger sister but she couldn't handle it I guess" I feels tears coming but try to hold them in

" I'm so sorry when did she passed " "I was 11 she was 10. my foster parents saved me when I was 15 I turned 16 last week she was 14 and is still 14 " I shake my head still in disbelief. " after a while it got worst he was fighting everyone until one night he came into the shower and I know for sure I had locked the door "

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Flashback

I take my shampoo bottle and wash my hair I close my eyes to wash the shampoo of and hear a door unlock. Confused I open my eyes and see him standing in front  of me naked. What the hell is he doing. " what are you doing " I look at him scared afraid to move " I thought maybe we can shower together I feel standing beside me and feel his hand slowly coming towards my private part. I feel him opening my legs. I'm afraid to move or run I couldn't get away. I feel his finger inside of me as he looks. I started my period today " okay I'm gonna help you so your period goes away faster " after a while he finally stopped and disappeared out of the shower.

End flashbacks.

" since that day it happened everyday and I was afraid and did what he told me. He raped me multiple times when my mom was asleep in the next room. I couldn't protest he told me nobody would every believe me I'm just a child and he is the grown up I was defenseless " I wipe a way a tears who escaped from my eye. I look at Hardin who is looking at me with open mouth I regretted my decision to tell him. I stand up to walk away but feel Hardin taking my hand and pull me into a hug " I'm so sorry that happened but your safe now I will protect you no matter what Tessa I promise......"

To be continued