The past that broke me

chapter 12

⭐️ - Hardin's point of view - ⭐️

I tried to call her a couple times but she didn't answer of my calls I'm getting worried what if something happened with her or she hurt herself. Why couldn't I control myself I shake my head and call her one more time " Tessa " I sigh from relief escapes my mouth " omg Tessa where are you are you okay " " I'm okay I'm at the train rails beside your house " " okay stay there please don't leave " I hang up and take my jacket and run outside towards the rails what is she even doing there.

From a distance I see her laying down on the grass with something in her hand I walk towards her and see she's smoking I didn't know she smoke. I sit down next to her and see her sitting up and look at me " I'm sorry that I run away " I take her hand " it's okay Tessa I get it but I was so worried and so mad at myself I promised myself I would go slow down for you" I see her smile a bit " I was overacting I know it wasn't your intention to hurt me " I shake my head " no of course not I would never hurt you "

I look at the pack cigarettes who are lying in the grass " since when do you smoke " I look into her eyes and see her looking sad at me " a couple months it makes me feel good not sad anymore like I'm focusing on something else " I nod because I know exactly what she means. I take a cigarette and light it on " since when do you smoke I never saw you with a cigarette " I smile and look at it " a couple years " I smile at her " maybe we can try to stop together " I see her smile at me and nod.

" Hardin " I look at her " yeah" I see her looking down " I wanna tell you something but I'm afraid to say it " I take her hand again " you know you can always tell me everything" I see her smile a little and look at me again " I think I'm in love with you and I know it is to fast and if you don't feel the same I understand " I cut her off by kissing her I pull her on my lap and kiss her passionately I pull back slowly " I'm in love with you too Tessa after the first time that I saw you and I promise I won't do anything if your not ready and I know with the past you have it's not easy" I smile at her and hug her tight.

I feel a couple tears fall on my shirt " what's wrong Tess " she looks at me " I thought nobody would love me he told me nobody would love me or believe me but you believed me " " of course I believe you Tess but are you okay I just" I look down and see something on her wrist " can we go inside" I look into her eyes and nod. I stand up and take her hand and help her up we walk inside " i will make some tea sit down Tess" I take 2 cups and put hot water in it and a tea bag. I walk towards Tessa and put the cups on the table and sit down next to her " tess" I turn around to face her " yeah " she takes a sip from her tea and put the cup on the table again.

" are you sure that everything is okay " I see her looking at me with an confused look " yeah why?" I take her hand and turn around I pull up her sleeve and see a couple fresh and old cuts " what is this then" I look at her and see her shaking her head " it's nothing" she pulls back her arms " Tessa that's not nothing " I shake my head " what am I supposed to say or do" I look at her.

" I don't know Tessa maybe talk about it with me or your foster parents I don't know what the hell am I supposed to do see you hurt and not be able to do anything about because you never tell me things" i see tears in her eyes as she looks down she wants to say something but my parents walk inside " hey are you guys still up" i look at the clock it's already midnight" yeah i was heading upstairs " I feel Tessa standing up and walk upstairs I stand up too " Hardin" I turn around to see my mom standing in front of me " yeah mom "

" is everything alright with Tessa she's not herself " I shrug " I don't know mom " I see her nod " okay sweetie goodnight" I smile " goodnight mom " I walk upstairs and take a quick shower and lay down I know I should go to her but I think she just needs to be alone right now I close my eyes and hear a knock on my door " come in ". I close my eyes again and feel someone sitting on the bed beside me " your right " I open my eyes and see Tessa sitting next to me I sit up " I understand that you had an past I really do but I just want to help you I know we don't know each other for that long but I really care about you " I see her smile a little " I know but it's not easy to talk about it" " I know tess come here " I feel her laying next to me I lay my hand in her neck and kiss her slowly I feel her smile against my lips " Tess you wanna be my girlfriend " I see her smile growing big " yeah I would love that " I smile at give her a kiss I feel her head on my chest and smile.

I close my eyes and softly drifting in a deep sleep