The past that broke me

Chapter 21

Little trigger warning - ⚠️ this story will be a chapter with sex scene if you don't want to read you can skip it ⚠️

⭐️ - Tessa's point of view - ⭐️

After we ate we walked upstairs and watch the first movies. The first was a comedy and the second was more a love story there were a couple scenes the actors had sex and honestly it didn't bothered me as it bothered me couple years ago. I was actually getting to feel the need to have sex it's weird to say it but with Hardin I felt safe. I wasn't a real virgin anymore, but I wanted Hardin to be my unofficial first time, but I was to afraid to say it maybe he thought that I'm not attractive anymore I don't know it's just hard to say it.

Of course I was scared it was my first time with someone I trust that I love but I have to get some courage to ask. "Tess?" I look at Hardin "yeah?" "I called you a couple times you were daydreaming" I look away afraid that he sees me blushing. "Yeah just a little bit but what were you saying?" I look back again hoping my cheeks weren't really red.

"What do you want to eat it's 17:00 pm maybe we can order something like pizza, fries or maybe sushi?" "Pizza is okay" I smile at him as he looked at me confused. "What?" I smile not knowing why he looked at me this way. "Pizza? You sure? I thought you love sushi?" " I do love sushi but I'm not really into it actually but if you want sushi we can eat it?" He shakes his head " no it's okay pizza is great". He kisses me and walk outside his room to call the delivery company.

I lay down on Hardin's bed again and take my phone I see that I have one message from my foster mom asking me how I am if everything is alright at Hardin's house and school. I texted back that everything was okay and school is good not bothering to tell what the three girls said to me because it was nothing.

After a while Hardin appears in the room again and lays down next to putting his arms around me " the pizza is here in 10 min we can go downstairs to take something to drink?" I nod and stand up with him walking downstairs into the kitchen.

We took our drink and sit down on the couch as I hear the bell ring. Hardin stands up and a couple seconds later came back with two pizzas "here you go babe" I smile and take the pizza Hardin handed me "thank you baby" I see him smile at the words I said to him. I never call him baby but I know he likes it when I call him like that.

We ate our pizza and threw our pizza box into the trashcan " Tess what for movie you want to watch?" I look down at my hands I was afraid to ask Hardin to be my first. I feel a finger under my chin as he tilt my chin up so I have to look at him. "What's wrong baby?" I shake my head " nothing is wrong Hardin I just want to ask you something but I'm afraid" he kisses my lips and said " ask me Tess."

"Well uhm I was thinking a lot about something I uhm I know that I'm not an virgin anymore but I uhm wanted to ask you if you can be my first I mean not the first first but the first boy who made love to me with passion and love and I understand if you don't want to but I-" Hardin cuts me off by kissing me passionately as he pulls back he asked me multiple times if I'm sure. And my answer is all the time I'm sure.

We walk upstairs as he lays me down slowly "are you on the pill Tess?" I nod "yeah" " okay baby if it hurts I will stop okay it will hurt at first but I promise you it will go away" I feel him kissing me and unbutton my pyjama I was a little bit nervous but who is not nervous when you are going to have sex for the first time.

I takes of my pyjama as he takes of his pyjama too leaving us both only in our underwear. I put my hands in reflex over my body but feel Hardin taking my hands away " don't cover up for me Tess your beautiful" he kisses me again as I feel his hands on my boobs message then as I moan softly. I feel him kissing my neck and take off my bra and panties. Now I'm completely naked. I see Hardin taking off his boxer revealing his c**k. I was not scared it looks amazing but I don't know if it will fit.

⚠️ sex scene ⚠️

I feel him laying beside me kissing me again i feel his hand reach down towards my entrance. Hardin sees that I'm nervous he kisses my neck and whispers in my ear " it's okay Tessa I will be gently" I nod as I feel his gently rubbing my bud of nerves as I moan softly. I never experienced this and it felt amazing. I feel his fingers slowly entering me as I shut my eyes from the pain I felt. I feel Hardin kissing my cheek " I know it hurts baby but I promise you it will be okay" I nod slowly as he starts moving his fingers and he was right within a couple minutes the pain faded away and turned into pleasure.

I feel his fingers pulling out of me as he gave kisses down from my neck towards my belly and slowly reaching my entrance. I feel his breath on my skin " you will like this Tess just lay down and relax okay baby" I nod and lay down I wasn't expecting this as I feel his tongue touching my bud of nerves. I couldn't express a moan and feel Hardin smile against my clit as he continues to lick my bud of nerves. I feel something boiling up inside of me as my moan became louder.

I feel two fingers inside of me as he continues licking "oh my Hardin " I moan lightly "come for me baby" I feel something explode in me as I came on his fingers. "Do you wanna" I nod as Hardin lays down and me hanging above his massive c**k. "How do I do it?" I look in Hardin's eyes and I see some glow inside of it. "Just like a lollipop and what you can't take you do it with your hands baby".

I slowly go down as I give little kitten licks on the top of his head I hear Hardin moan softly as I take him in my mouth and with my hands take the rest. I slowly bop my head and hear his moans getting louder and faster. I continue with what I'm doing " baby I I'm coming Tess if you don't wa-" but he couldn't say his words as he came into my mouth and swallowed it.

I see Hardin standing up and push me down on the bed kissing me roughly our tongues are fighting for dominance he wins. We pull back as we look in each others eyes "are you sure Tess?" I nod "yeah yeah I am " I smile softly as I feel his tip against my entrance slowly pushing inside of me I groan and close my eyes because of the pain that I'm feeling. "You okay Tess we don't have to go further" I hear Hardin's worried voice say. "Yeah yeah I'm okay you can move " I open my eyes as I see Hardin slowly nodding not sure to continue.

"Please Hardin I want this" I see him nod and slowly moving. The pain was still there but slowly turning into pleasure. "Oh my god " I moan as I feel him hitting my g-spot. He continues as his trust become sloppier I slowly start to moan harder and faster and I knew I was coming soon " oh my god Tess you so tight baby uh I'm gonna come".

"Oh my god Hardin right there I think I'm gonna come too uh" I feel him twitch inside of me as we came together.

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We lay down next to each other as he kisses my forehead. "That was amazing Tess" I nod "yeah it was". I look into his eyes "I love you so much Hardin" I feel him kissing me " I love you too Tessa, come let's go shower" I smile and stand up walk towards his bathroom and turn on the shower.

We didn't have to get undressed because we were already completely naked. So we both took an shower got dressed and lay down on the bed watching the movie again. I lay on his chest as I slowly falling asleep I close my eyes and before I completely fell asleep I hear Hardin say " your the first girl that loves me for who I am thank you so much baby for changing my present and future I love you".