The past that broke me

Chapter 16

⭐️ - Hardin's point of view - ⭐️

I see Tessa looking down I understand it's hard for her but maybe talking helps her to process the horrible past, and deep inside I feel a little bit nervous and nauseous because I don't know what she's gonna tell me I see her looking at me as I take her hand. " it's okay baby take your time " I see her smile a bit.

" I didn't tell you the whole truth the family that I live with right now wasn't my first family I came " I look at her confused " what do you mean Tess" " before I came with Mrs and Mr Adam I lived with an other couple they knew what happened because I told them they helped me with everything eventually there was a lawsuit but there wasn't enough evidence so they let him go that's why I wrote that to my mom but she doesn't give a shit about me."

I want to say something but Tessa was first " I wasn't 13 when he did those things to me " I feel the color drain from my face hoping she won't say what I think " I was 11 years old when it began I didn't know what it was I was just a child and now I'm thinking back if I knew what it was could I stop it I could have told someone the would help me" I see tears falling down her cheeks " and your sister " she shakes her head " is it true she committed suicide " I see her nod " she wasn't 14 was she " I see her shake no " they saved me the foster family before this family they saved me I was 13 my sister wasn't 14 she was 12 before her birthday she did it and I just can't forgive myself it took 2,5 years for someone to safe me if the would be sooner the could safe her too".

" he raped me when i was 11 and my sister was 10 i just hate myself so much for not saving her fuck I wish it was me " I pull her into my arms " don't say that Tessa please don't say that about yourself " I hug her and kiss her forehead " I just feel so stupid Hardin " " your not stupid Tessa you were a kid you didn't know better it's not your fault baby " I pull back from the hug and cup my hands on her cheeks and look at her I kiss her lips softly.

I pull back and see tears falling from her cheeks I wipe them away " it's okay Tessa " I see her shake her head " I don't know Hardin how am I even going to process this, my past broke me Hardin and I'm afraid I can't fix it I was so happy before everything happened I just don't feel anything anymore " I feel her taking my hands of her cheeks and walk into the garden and sit down on the chair and take her cigarettes out of her pockets and light one on.

I sit down next to her and take my own cigarette I look up in the sky I feel her taking my hand we don't say anything but the feeling that we are here for each other is like magic like nobody can ever break us apart. I smile lightly " I understand that your in pain but you have me now your not alone anymore " I look at her " I know but I just weird to see everyone has an mom and dad and I don't have it anymore it's hard sometimes I feel like I'm cursed or something I don't know it's like the guy up there doesn't want me to be happy to be normal " I turn around the chair so we could face each other.

" listen to me baby I love you so so much since the day I met you I felt something that I have never felt before you are special Tess you really are, your a sweet and loving person baby I love you" I see her smile a little as a tear escape from her eyes. I see her stand up and sit on my lap as she lay her face into neck as finally the tears escape. I wrap my arms around her waist and pull her closer I kiss her shoulder to calm her down a bit and luckily it helps " hey son " I look into the direction were my dad is standing as he smile softly " is everything okay " I nod slowly as he walks inside again. my dad wasn't a type of guy to talk about feelings my mom most of the time did because she understand my dad understand it too, but not as much my mom did. I feel Tessa pulling away from the hug and looks at me with teary eyes " thank you for not leaving me " I lay my hands in her cheek to wipe away the falling tear " I would never leave you baby I love you " I see her smile " I love you too Hardin" I place my lips on hers and kiss her in between our kiss I say " don't say too it sounds your agreeing with me " I feel her smile as she say to me " I love you Hardin Scott ".

" well lets go upstairs we have a busy day tomorrow school and Jace party if you still wanna go of course " I see her smile at me " yeah what could happen right " I smile and take her hand and walk inside I see my mom and dad sitting in the living room watching a movie. we walk upstairs and see Tessa walking inside the guest room to change. she wanted to stay with me tonight and of course I couldn't say no who can say no to her. I change into my sweatpants and sweatshirt and wait for Tessa to enter the room. I felt like hours when she finally came in and lay down next to me I feel her laying on my chest as I put my arms around her and pull her closer " Tess" for a while I thought she felt asleep " yeah" I smile a little " when are you foster parents be back " I see her sitting up and take her phone " they needed to stay 1 week longer my foster mom told she was so sorry but she will be back soon as she can she says that I'm in good hands her she talked to you mom how everything is going so far of everything is alright" I nod " what did my mom say " " I don't know but its probably good I hope " I see Tessa smile as she kisses me and lay down on my chest again.

" goodnight baby" I feel her smile against my chest " goodnight sweetie " I smile at the word choice she used and close my eyes .