The past that broke me

Chapter 10

⭐️ - Hardin's point of view - ⭐️

I called her a couple times it looks like she's daydreaming or something I put the pasta on the kitchen table and walk towards her " Tess " I sit in front of her as she looks into my eyes " I called you a couple times but you didn't respond are you okay" I see her nod and I don't ask about it further. She stands up and sit down I put some pasta and give it to her.

" Tessa" I take her hand that is laying next to her plate " mhmm " I rub with my dumb on her hand " are you okay because you have been really quiet since you got home " I never been worried about someone but Tessa shes is different " I'm fine Hardin really " I look into her eyes but I just can't read any emotion of her face like she has a wall in front of her afraid she gets hurt again.

I feel that she pulls her hand back " should we play on the Xbox " I see her smile a bit " yeah sure what game " " assassins creed " I see her shake her head really fast I look at her eyes like she wants to cry I stand up and walk towards her and kneel in front of her " what's wrong Tess " i take her hand and look at her " come here " I pull her up and hug her tight I hear her cry softly I didn't say anything wrong did I " come sit on the couch I will grab some water okay " I see her sit down on the couch I open the fridge and take a bottle of water and sit down next to her.

I give her the bottle " did I say something wrong" she shakes no " no you didn't that game is something that I don't want to play anymore maybe for a long time  " I look at her confused " what happened Tess " I see her looking down I lay my finger under her chin " what happened Tessa ". I smile a bit at her and see her nod slowly I know it's hard well I don't know how it feels like to have this much pain but I understand that it's not easy.

" the first year that it happened it was not as bad as it became a couple months later " I nod and take her hand and give a kiss on top of it " I was sitting downstairs my mom was away I think doing groceries I was playing that game I was so into the game it was my favorite game " I see her smile but not even a second later it disappeared " I was so into the game that I didn't feel him laying behind me suddenly I uhm felt his hands under my shirt towards my uhm boobs and just played with it , I uhm was so scared that I couldn't say or do anything I just played the game ignoring the fact that he touched me on a inappropriate way , and then my mom came home and his hands disappeared as fast as he appeared and left the room"

I look at her and see a tear rolling down her cheek I pull her on my lap and hug her thighs I don't understand why some people would do this to girls like what is going on in there head to be this fucked up. I kiss her head " this is not everything well this is the fucked up shit in my life but there is so much more " I pull away from the hug and look at her " you wanna tell me I see her shake no " if you wanna talk you can always tell me you know that right" I see her smile again that beautiful smile I fell in love with when I first saw it.

" thank you Hardin for being here because I don't know how long I could hold on doing it myself to process the thing I always thought I was alone, and at first I was scared to trust anyone because he always said that nobody would even believe a kid " I shake my head in disbelief " I believe you Tessa why would a kid say this without meaning it but are you okay " I see her nod but I know she's lying " I wanna tell you something Tess".

I look into her eyes " I feels that your not okay and you don't have to say anything but I wanna let you know if there is anything wrong you can always tell me I'm here for you I really am Tess" I feel her hug me " thank you " I smile and hug her back. " well let's watch a movie and you choose which one " I smile at her I see her taking the remote and open Netflix after a couple minutes she found drama comedy she put the movie on and feel her laying on my shoulder and watch the movie with a smile.

I look at her and smile how is it possible that this girl make me so in love in such a short time I think I'm in love with her. " you okay Hardin" I look at Tessa who is looking at me I nod and look in her beautiful blue eyes should I kiss her or is it to fast for her. I feel our heads getting closer I can't control myself and kiss her.

I feel her pull back and looks at me with a little bit of shock I wanna apologize but I feel her lips on mine and kiss me slowly. This is what I have been dreaming about since I saw her she stole my heart

To be continued