I crossed my arms over my toilet seat and felt my stomach twisting and turning in knots. I woke up feeling nauseous at two in the morning and had to stand slowly. The small movement provoked my stomach and I upchucked all over my pajamas. Now I stayed camped out in the bathroom since then, waiting for my belly to settle.
I lurched again and flushed, feeling like pregnancy is a lot of hard work. Seriously, women create babies all the time to populate the Earth and the symptoms can still be still terrible. I was forming a headache from vomiting so much, and I finally stood up.
I warily left the bathroom and walked to the pantry. I eyed the coffee machine longingly, wishing I could have just one small cup. But no, I'm pregnant and it would put my baby at risk or some shit.
I scavenged through my cupboard for something small to snack on so my stomach has something easy to digest. There were no crackers or anything, and I decided that it was probably better not to eat before bed anyway. As much as I hated to sound like my mother, that's the excuse I went with.
I made my way back into my bedroom where my phone was plugged in on my nightstand. Nothing was going on at all, no texts, no emails or Facebook updates. I decided that hopefully Dan would still be awake so we could talk.
Me: hey you up?
I put my phone on the bedding in front if me and waited a minute, then five, then ten before I gave up. I put my phone back on the bedside table and layed back on my pillows with boredom. I heard the buzz of a text message and quickly checked what it said.
Dan: yeah
Dan: why?
I thought for a second before I texted back my reply.
Me: I feel sick and can't sleep :(
Dan: do you want some company?
I smiled and thanked my lucky stars that I had such god chances that I had someone like him in my life.
Me: Yeah that would be nice
Dan: over in ten
A grin spread across my face and I stretched my arms out our my head in satisfaction. Dan would be coming over soon and it would be a nice night. I got up and walked out into the living room where I sat on the couch.
I nearly fell asleep on the sofa in the few minutes that I had to wait for his quiet knock. I opened the door silently and smiled at him. He was wearing only boxer shorts, he must have dropped everything to come over.
I reached up and hugged Dan, his bare chest warm against my shirt. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tight. The moment felt frozen in time until I pulled away. I grabbed his hand and led him towards my room, feeling happy that he would be with me again tonight.
"I guess I'm sleeping here tonight?"
"Uh, yeah, is there a problem?" my eyebrows knitted together to form lines in between them. If he didn't want to spend the night he could have just said so. After all, he was the one to suggest it.
"It's just that... I don't have a change of clothes and I'd have to go home later only wearing boxers." Even in the dark I could see the blush blooming on his cheeks. I giggled, imagining him sneaking around the apartment building half naked.
"Ok, do you want me to spend the night at your place?" I looked down at my black sweatpants and dark purple tank top, thinking that it was more of a lazy day outfit than pajamas.
Dan nodded and I followed him out of my apartment, making sure I had my phone and locking the door behind me. He grabbed my hand again when we were in the elevator, rubbing circles into the back of my hand with his thumb.
Dan led me into his own apartment and I felt instantly at home. Their place had lots of personality to it, with the decorated bookshelf full of just as many toys as there were books. I was brought all the way to his mainly black and grey bedroom and remembered that this was my second time ever being in his room.
Dan smiled and pulled me onto his bed with him. Together we cuddled under the covers, enjoying the warmth of the duvet.
"Hey Dan."
"Charlotte."
"You know, I'm about five weeks pregnant. So our baby's the size of an apple seed." I saw Dan's look of excitement on his face before he spoke.
"That's amazing!"
We lay in silence, not awkward silence, but it was peaceful. It really made me contemplate how far I've gotten in life from this experience. I've never really lived before until I met Dan, and now I'm having our child. It seems like fate that brought us together and told us that we were ready to face the world. I felt better when I was with him, like time would stop when we're together.
"I love you, Dan." I spoke every word with nothing but honesty and, well, love.
It was quiet for a moment, almost too long until he finally spoke, "I love you too."
