The Idol I Love ~Taegyu~

Chapter 41

⚠️Self-harm⚠️

'Blaming'

Taehyun went to his own house three days after Huening Kai's accident. Felix took good care of the younger ( Taehyun ) and said positive and comforting words to him. Now that his favorite hyung, maknae or his only best friends are gone, the house he lives is now really quiet.

The noise he is hearing is just his heavy breathes, his footsteps sounding like he was running and rain drops.

They left me alone?

They don't care about my presence,

Well do they?

Why did they leave me..

Is it because I became worthless?

Or it's just that they can't carry it all?

I shouldn't blame them for leaving me,

I'm the reason why they died.

I should blame myself.

Taehyun thought, he pulled out a knife from the kitchen.

'This wouldn't hurt because I already experienced a lot of pain right?'

Taehyun hissed in pain but satisfaction after when he cut his arms, blood dripping down his skin.

A few more wounds and deep cuts were getting on his epidermis, the knife in his hands sliding deep into his tanned skin.

After Taehyun's done with the very last cut, a lot of bloods were now dripping down and on the floor, numerous cuts were on his skin.

The knife that was on Taehyun's hands immediately fell down, releasing a loud sob and gasp.

Having flashbacks of Beomgyu's body getting hit by a car,

Blood

It reminds Taehyun of Beomgyu's accident.

"F—" Taehyun's eyes trembled.

Taehyun went to sit on the floor, getting teary.

He lay his back on the cabinet in the kitchen, his arms wrapping his knees and sobbing loudly since no one is at his house so he doesn't care.

He doesn't care anymore.

What's around him,

He doesn't give a f–ck right now.

"Yeonjun hyung, Soobin hyung and Huening Kai-ah.."

"Why did you guys leave me?"

"Beomgyu hyung, my love.."

"I'm very sorry."

"Only if I didn't exist in this world.."

"You guys would have not been dead.."

Taehyun cried and cried after,

He keeps on blaming himself.