The Beckett House

Chapter 9: I May Loose It

Axel's Point of View:

Just great I thought as Rome and I walked back into the kitchen I'm sure he was thinking the same thing. The kids were all sitting down picking at their food, ungrateful brats, but at least the mess was cleaned. I looked at Rome to see if he would take initiative and be the bearer of bad news. I knew he wouldn't he's too soft.

"Dad's coming home tomorrow. Buisness trip ended early. After dinner start cleaning the house up." Short and sweet I wasn't about to deal with them arguing with me. I studied each of there faces I knew one of them was going to loose it and rather quickly. I could see Kaz's eyes dart back and forth working through his thoughts and I saw the moment Decker landed on anger.

(Decker) - "Fuck this shit!" He pushed himself out from under the table and started stomping up the stairs.

"GET YOUR ASS BACK DOWN HERE!" My voice boomed. Even took myself by surprise I really wasn't that mad. Decker came back down I think I scared him a bit which made me grin.

(Indy) - "It's really not that bad Decker. Your being dramatic." Ugh sweet Indy Rose. She always sees the good in people and I think it helps she doesn't rember much of when mom first died. Dad wasn't great and he was still a drunk but he had gotten better us boys just tend to hold a grudge.

(Rome) - "Hey Indie I think its best you let us talk for awhile. Why don't you start moving your stuff into Axel and I's room?"

(Indy) - "How come every time dad comes up I can't be around?"

(Rome) - "Not now Indy, please?"

Reluctantly Indy left to start moving stuff to our room. I looked at the boys and I could tell they were anything but happy. Decker had his arms crossed and was fuming and Kaz hadn't said a word. He was to busy looking down at his feet and twiddling his thumbs.

"Look y'all are just gonna have to toughen up. We don't like it either and yet we're not stomping up stairs or pouting. Hes still your dad. He may be drunk but half the time y'all get in trouble with him its for mouthing off. Rome and I will step in if it isn't justified y'all know that. So put your big girl panties on and start cleaning something. You know how he is about having everything clean."

(Kaz) - "How come you and Rome get to treat him like shit and yet we don't? Hell, Rome doesn't even call him dad!"

(Rome) - "Because I'm a fucking adult now shut your fucking mouth. Your gonna respect him because your a fucking child and he's older than you. Now get off your lazy ass and go clean." He didn't raise his voice but the agitation was there.

There were no more smart ass remarks or questions I think they finally got the hint Rome was fed up and when Rome was fed up he could even scare me.

Decker's Point of View:

I left the table before I said something that would get me in trouble. Man I hated dad. He's never around and when he is he acts like he's been there all my life. He's a drunk. He's an abuser. And he's a peice of shit. He hasn't came around in 8 months why bother now.

I could here Kaz close on my tail. I felt bad for him he's a sensitive kid with a big heart and hated when dad came around. Kaz resembles mom the most and its clear dad hates him for it. But like I said Kaz has a big heart and every time dad comes he tries to mend the relationship only to be left broken.

Rome and Axel just don't understand. When dad's around they can still do whatever they want and it doesn't affect them. Kaz and I on the other hand have to obey every single thing he says like he's fucking royalty. Its bullshit how he never shows up but still gets treated like somebody even though he's a nobody.

I plopped down on my bed which was in one corner while Kaz flopped down on his in the other. He was deep in thought. I couldn't let him sit there alone with his thoughts. It was inhumane. Knowing Kaz he would go off the deep end and freak out.

"Sorry about that busted up lip you got there. I went to far."

(Kaz) - "It's all right you and I both know I deserved it. What you think about dad coming? Well I know what you think, but whats going through your head because I'm trying to figure it out myself." I never understood how he could just sit there and ponder deep in thought not making a sound. He's a smart cookie thats for sure but it never ceased to amaze me at how well he was at composing himself.

"I don't know something is different about this one. I don't know if it's because it's unexpected or if its because it was a shorter break than usual. But Kaz I think I may fucking loose it this time I really do."

We left it at that. Nothing else needed to be said. We just sat there in silence trying to figure it all out.