Wolf's Kissed

Part 38.

Fenrir's Pov. 

Some Days Later. 

Looking out of the window of my room I release a sigh, they gave them the gold and silver for them to not raid these lands again and the gold and silver for Lagertha since I am staying here. Do i wish to stay here? No. But I know a part of me has too, these lands are good and rich people could farm then and all that had to happen for that was that I would have stayed. So as much as it pains me, I will stay until Lagertha returns in the spring. 

"I have been informed that your people have left." The voice of the king says as he walks into the room making me nod. "Indeed they have, do I have to stay into this room?" I ask as I turn in his direction with a raised brow. "You are still wounded, but if you wish to leave this room that is up to you." He speaks making me nod as I grab some white shirt and put it on.  "And can I also leave this villa or what ever you call it?" 

"I can not let you leave alone Fenrir, you are my guest if anything where to happen to you it could cause a war." He speaks making me turn around with a wolfish grin. "Then why do you not join me?" 

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Walking out of the Vila and towards the open field with the king beside me I let a wolfish grin appear on my face. "Listen." I say before leaning my head back and letting out a loud howl, hearing three more mix together with mine I let a smile grown on my face. They stayed, I can recognize the howls of Geri, Skoll and Hati out of thousands of howls. 

Opening my eyes again I see the tree wolves run over while the king backs away until I am tackled into the ground by them making a pained yelp leave my lips as they start licking my face while I try to push them off. 

"Yes I have missed you guys too, now get off." I groan out as I shove Hati's head away and he moves on his back as he shows me his stomach making me chuckle before standing up. 

"That is why they call you Wolf's Kissed?" He speaks making me shrug as I start walking over the field and I soon hear him fall in pace.  "The night I was born Thor was hammering his anvil so hard, many had never heard him hammer so hard before." I start as Geri walks next to me as my hand lays on his head. "The only thing they could hear was the thunder and the screams of my mother as she was trying to push me out of her, my brothers Rangar and Rollo where sitting outside the farm we used to live." I continue to speaks as he looks at me and listens to every word I am speaking at this moment. 

"Until a pack of wolves surrounded our home and started to howl, they did not attack all they did was howl that mixed with the thunder and my mothers screams. Until suddenly it was all silent, the thunder went away, the wolves stopped howling and my mother stopped screaming as my father held me in his arms for the first time. They called me Wolf's Kissed because of that night and the mark on my side." I finish with a shrug making him raise his brow, rolling my eyes I pull the shirt up and the bandage down to show him the mark on my side as he places his hand on my skin. 

"Athelstan has told me that many believe you are more wolf than man." He says as he takes his hand away from my skin making me put the bandage good again before letting my shirt fall down my again.  "I like living in the woods, having many people around me clouds my mind and makes me feel trapped. And I have a tendency to start howling, Sansa looked at me like I was a mad man the first time I did it."  I say with a sad smile a we walk on a small hill and I take a seat on the grass as I look at the villa. 

"Did you know her good? She must have been the one who taught you out langue." He asks as he takes a seat next to me. "I-i captured her in Northumbia, she kneed me in the cock, spit on my face and punched me once or twice. I was Earl back then and she was my slave but I never treated her like that she spiked my interest." I softly speak as I look at his villa while Geri lays down beside me.

"Sounds like Sansa, I wondered many nights where she had gone. Or prayed that I would have seen her again, she had a free spirit like you Fenrir." He speaks making me nod. "It was my child." I whisper and I see his eyes slightly widen as he looks at me. 

"She was with your child? I kept you here because I thought you knew about what happened to her, and to make sure that Ragnar would keep his word. But she was carrying your son?" He says in disbelief making me sigh. 

"When I made Ragnar Earl I wished to go back into the woods, to be close with nature. Sansa she joined me and eventually feelings began to spark from both sides, I did care about her deeply and so after some months of us just being in nature living in caves she told me she was with child." I say as I run my hand trough Geri's fur. "Sansa slept in a cave?" He asks me with slight disbelief making me chuckle. "She did not like it at first but it grew on her, until she told me she was with child. I did not want her to be pregnant and us being in a cave so we returned to Kattegat, the whines she was displaying during that walk back I will never forget." I say as I pull my knees towards my chest. 

"Or the panic and fear on her face when our son was stuck inside of her, the pained screams that she made still sometimes haunt me.  The blood on our bed and our bodies will always stay on my mind, and the first and last time she told me she loved me I still sometimes hear it in my dreams." I whisper as I feel a tear run down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away. 

"A father can only hope his children one day find a person who is worthy of their love, I do not know much about you Fenrir Wolf's Kissed but I am glad that, that person was you." 

The Following Spring. 

I wish I could say I enjoy it here but that would be a lie, I feel trapped, like a dog on a leash. It is not that I am not 'allowed' to walk outside but it is the fact that they allow me, or send guards with me that make me feel trapped here. Athelstan left with the Ragnar and the other's I guess he liked our ways more than theirs, and haven been stuck here for months I can see why.

King Ecbert is good to me, but still these  people are not my people. They do not act like my people, praying to their falls god's and they act as if we are savages while they believe that they are better.  My son must have been long born by now and I can not hold him in my arms, I can not take Herleif with me to howl at the moon making his mother's head hurt while we give her both our wolfish grin. 

They have not yet returned and I do not think they will this year, they must have had a strong winter and the ice must not have been gone yet. I just miss them, my sons, my wife. God's I miss her touch, her voice, her smell just everything about her. 

I wish to hold her again, to hold Herleif again and my new son. I can only hope that they will be able to return soon, and in that way I can be away from this place to be with my own people again. Because I do not know how much more of this I can take. 

Author's Note, 

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