nothing without you || lando norris (COMPLETED)

XI

i laid in that chair, the entire flight home, tears forming in my eyes. i wasn't scared of her, not a single thing about her scared me. i was hurt that i'd had to leave everything behind all because this stupid girl had people after me.
i couldn't be angry at lando, it wasn't his fault, he was the main person trying to help me get out of this situation.
i was more embarrassed that he had now seen me have a full fledged panic attack right infront of him.

the truth is, this just reminds me of my ex jaden, we dated for almost a year then shit went crazy, he blew up meanwhile i stayed here. every weekend i was being sent photos of him with other girls, messages from girls saying they'd seen him leave a club with someone else, just everything you can imagine bad happening, happened. he stalked me for months when we broke up, he was everywhere i went, always trying to get us back together. it ruined me to the point i got sent to a mental facility for a month or two to get better.

since i went there i've stayed medicated, i've attended weekly therapist sessions which i now can't attend because ive had to have my shit packed up and moved away because of her. i kinda hoped they'd move my therapy online. although i hated therapy, i had a lovely therapist who really helped me.

jaden thankfully doesn't contact me anymore, his record label had got ahold of his behaviour and said if he was to contact me again they'd have him dropped right away, i guess that they kinda did me a favour, they don't even like him he just brings them good money, it's the only reason he's still signed with them.

i knew my mental state was going to go downhill, i had got my medicine with me but again, it wasn't enough supply to keep me going. trin had promised me my team would do everything in their power and explain the situation to everyone they needed to to help me continue life the same here as i did in america. i had full faith in her because i knew she wouldn't let me down.

once the plane had landed in france, me and lando headed to the car to take us back to his room. he'd been on his phone constantly for the last 20 minutes texting, not even lifting his eyes up from his phone. the car ride home was long and tiering, all i wanted to do was climb into my bed and cry, couldn't even do that because of lusia now.

we arrived at landos house and i really wont complain, it was gorgeous, security outside and it was in a really nice area with a lot surrounding it. lando informed me there would be a few surprises for me too which i felt really guilty for. i didn't even know where to begin in his apartment, should i put my stuff away? should i just go to sleep? my mind began to race. soon enough i fell to my knees again, shaking and hyperventilating, these are the same panic attacks i used to have over jaden. i heard lando call out from the kitchen and i couldn't even piece together a reply. soon enough he came running out, scooped me into his arms and took me into his bed.

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i must have fallen asleep because i woke up the next morning to lando awake, stroking my hair. i don't even remember much of what happened last night. i guess i had a really bad panic attack and ended up here. i truly did feel so guilty because this isn't his fault, yet he's having to pick up the peices of my pathetic mental illness.

"good morning baby" lando cooed, stroking the side of my face.
"i'm sorry" i cried, hiding in his neck, i couldn't bare him seeing me like this.
"she can't hurt you here, you're safe" he reassured.
i knew she couldn't hurt me here, the place was fucking guarded by security.
"but she's stripped me from everything i knew lando, i know i need to give it a chance here but i didn't know i wouldn't be going back home" i sobbed.
i could tell the guilt waved over lando. it wasn't even his fault i don't know why im almost making it out to be towards him, he shouldn't have to feel guilty when he's a victim of her behaviour himself.

"im going to go out and get us some groceries for breakfast, we can go and do a big shop whenever you feel ready" lando said.
i nodded and he planted a kiss on my forehead before leaving the room to head to the shops.

i wanted to start unpacking but i knew id need more energy than i had to do so. i just sat there flicking through netflix and ended up settling on narcos.

my mind was still racing, i was so angry that everything had been taken away from me, that i could no longer build my career i wanted. i know my life wasn't over but it was on pause till this bitch either got locked up and all her 'minions' if they even exist gave up or she just decides to leave me alone.

i decided to give trin a call to see if she had any updates on anything...

"they've let her go for now, if she goes near you again then she will be sent for trial, get a restraining order and then possibly sent to jail, until she does something again, it's unlikely anything else will happen. she's been warned not to go near you and if she does or you see her or she even messages you, contact me and i will inform the police immediately, the same goes for lando, okay" she explained
i was honestly so baffled as to how oblivious these people were to her behaviour, there again so was i till i experienced it first hand.
"that's fine, what about my counselling and medication? my career?" i questioned.

"lando has the career side covered, he has a surprise, you're medicine and doctor will be over in monaco, don't worry about that you'll be able to go collect more tomorrow, you won't run out, everything will be ok.
i love you and go unpack, i'll see you very soon." she said before hanging up.

she was right, maybe everything will be okay, maybe i need to see this as a new beginning.
i decided to go shower and wash my hair, i needed to feel fresh if i was going to make a good life out of what ive got right now.

by the time i had gotten out the shower i could smell breakfast from a mile away. the smell of the bacon and eggs was so refreshing, i couldn't wait to devour that. i haven't tried landos cooking yet but if it tastes as good as it smells, that man can have whatever he wants.

i'd been advised to hand my social media over to my team so waiting for breakfast felt like it dragged. while i was still allowed to go on it, i had to show that i was happy & i wasn't allowed to mention anything about the whole situation, although it was definitely going to get out there at some point. there was strict rules, i couldn't post my location or anything that could point out where i was.

"breakfast is served baby" lando called out.
i walked into the kitchen and the selection of food was beyond amazing. pastries, fry up, smoothies, everything you could imagine as a breakfast food was right infront of my eyes. he must have known i'd need the energy for today.

incoming call charles leclerc

why the hell is charles ringing me? i thought to myself. i decided to pick up to see what he wanted.

"hey are you okay?" i asked
"yeah, i just think there's something you should see, am i ok to come round?" he questioned
i looked over to lando who looked puzzled but gave me the thumbs up.
"yeah that's fine, come now if you would like, i'm sure you'd enjoy some of this breakfast, see you soon." i replied.

i was so confused as to what i really needed to see but something told me it was to do with lusia.

tens minutes later charles came running through the door, not expecting him to be running i asked "why the hell are you running?"
he threw my phone onto the sofa and told me to read these photos.

all i could see was charlotte feeding lusia inside information, where i am, where i was living, where my event was. i couldn't even believe that she could do this. my jaw dropped and lando snatched the phone from my hands to read for himself.

"i left all of  her stuff outside the door as soon as i saw these messages, i couldn't believe it. i heard her on the phone to someone who was calling from prision in america last night, i was confused but i thought lusia had left you alone after what lando said. i guess not, im done with her." charles explained.
"i dont blame you for anything charles, come sit!" i begged, giving him a big hug and telling him we are here if he needs anything.

it all began to piece together in my head, charlotte told everyone that lusia had tried to get up charles so she could turn us against her even more, then she could feed everything we said about her back to lusia. everything just began to make sense to me...