nothing without you || lando norris (COMPLETED)

XXVII

I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache, knowing I had to be up within the next 20 minutes the regret of drinking so much began to sink in. The boys were already up and getting on with their day, not that I can blame them, they've got a lot to get on with.

I slowly dragged myself out of bed before texting them to let them know I was up, just heading for a shower. I quickly washed everything, normally I would have waited till we arrived to actually get properly ready but I knew there was going to be paparazzi so I couldn't afford to look like shit.

This morning I was also woken to the news I would be doing a show in Monaco in a few months, honestly I'm excited but also nervous. God knows who is going to be there and nobody here really knows me? Don't know why they want me to perform but honestly I'm happy to do it.

Once I was ready I uploaded some photos to my story.

Story by @nessabarrett

Heading downstiars to meet the boys, they both greeted me with a sheepish look on their faces.

"What have you two done?" I questioned.

"Caused some chaos, come on we need to get going!" Max called out, heading towards the door.

I began to head out the door before realising I'd left all my shit at landos, how I had forgotten is beyond me.

"You got a key?" Charles asked

"Yeah, trin told me he left this morning so I will just go back and get enough to last me, I guess I'm gonna have to go back at some point though, I live there now." I sighed

"Not true, if Charles doesn't have any room then I do, we can both go and get your stuff after Bahrain, if he is there you can just ignore him, if he says anything I'll hit him!" Max exclaimed.

We headed to landos and i could sense something was going to be bad or something was going to go horribly wrong. the awkward tension was already there and i hadn't even stepped foot into the mans house.

"What the fuck are you doing here?" Lando yelled.

"Why are you even still here lando? I'm getting my shit for Bahrain!" I replied.

"Leave her alone mate. You've done enough damage now let her get her shit and let her go, forever." Max darted, Charles nodding in agreement.

lando didnt even manage to peep another word before i began to barge past, collecting all of my things. there was no way i was going to let this man tell me what the hell to do after everything he put me through. at this point with the way lando was acting id decided to pack all of my shit in another suitcase and take it back to mass before we headed off to the first race.

i could hear commotion coming from the living room but i tried my best to not let it stop me doing what i needed to do. i could tell me making my mind up on leaving lando had really hurt him, in a sense i felt guilty but he never seemed to feel truly guilty for what he did to me over the past few months. i packed up my last few bits before the boys began to head out of the door, leaving me with lando to say my 'goodbyes' if that's what you want to call it.

"nessa im-" lando stuttered.

"just dont lando, you have done all the damage you needed to for me to go, i wish you all the best but im not doing this anymore. we will figure out a way for this to work around the paddock but i can't do this anymore, goodbye lan" i cut him off before turning around walking towards the door.

"please nessa, i am sorry, i didnt want to hurt you. im a mess without you just give me one more chance i can make it right" he ran towards the door grabbing my arm.

yanking my arm back away from him i shook my head and closed the door behind me, greeted with the faces of two men who had a look on their face asif they wanted to kill him.

i informed the boys that i needed to head back to maxs before we left and drop my stuff off that i picked up but didnt exactly need to lug halfway across the world with me. the walk back seemed peaceful but awkward at the same time, it was almost like nobody knew what to say because so much had happened in the past 12 hours.

once we had gotten back to maxs we made up a quick chicken salad. i scrolled through social media, looking at all the posts that were made of my album release. if im honest i hadn't even had time to think about it for the past 12 hours, i really wish i could have enjoyed the night more than i did. it was an incredibly special night for me, it just felt like everything good in my life was always ruined since i met lando.

as much as he brought me happiness when he wasn't hurting me, he reminded me of my past too many times, he made me feel like i wasn't worth it and he couldn't give me the love and structure i needed. with him i was always wondering when he was going to hurt me next or constantly having to pack my stuff up and move away to avoid his crazy ex.

for so long i blamed luisa for it all, but when i actually think about it, it is also his fault... he fed into her needs, he toyed with her, he continued to let her have contact with him knowing what she would do. he slept with her, he knew she wouldn't leave him alone after it was all an excuse, he had to be stupid to think i wouldn't catch onto this all at some point. sure it'd taken me awhile to catch on but i did eventually. it sickens me that he literally could have put a stop to all of this but he chose not to.

i just wanted this season to be different, i hope that i can stay happy throughout. i am excited for the new adventures i would be taking with my real friends. i couldn't wait to watch some amazing racing. i also hoped that i could find real love, if it was with one of my boy friends or someone i haven't even met yet, whoever i fall in love with this season, i just hope they are great...