nothing without you || lando norris (COMPLETED)

XIIII

I woke up the next morning, lando was already out of bed, I went downstairs to see if he was making anything for breakfast, he wasn't today.
I decided to head to the cupboard and pour a bowl of cereal whilst I sat on my phone scrolling endlessly through social media.

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I got up and headed to the shower, thinking about all the possibilities that could be opened up to me. I decided that today I would spend a little while in the studio. I hadn't even really touched any instruments since I'd been here so it felt right that I do so today. I spent ages singing in the shower hoping lando hadn't come home and could hear the ratchet I was producing.

Afterwards I headed into the studio room and began coming up with ideas. My mind was full of ideas but there wasn't anything I could think of that would make a hit song. I physically didn't know how my career was going to go over here. I actually did question if singing was even for me anymore and I had been thinking about going to university or some form of education again. As much as I hated it I wondered if my true passion wasn't singing. I hadn't ever questioned if singing was for me and in a way I felt guilty.

i sat there for what must have been two hours trying to string something together, i physically couldn't. what i didn't notice is that lando had been stood in the doorway for at least half an hour. i kinda didn't realise i had no idea where he had gone so i didn't even know how much free time i had.

"come downstairs, i've got you waffles" lando cooed, looking at me with guilt.
i guess he must feel guilty seeing me struggle with my music over here. i don't want him to feel guilty. he isn't the one to blame.
i followed him down the stairs into the kitchen and immediately i was hit with the smell of nutella waffles coming from the bag on the counter... but how did he know i love waffles???

"so tell me my love, what's bothering you with music? what's happening in your little brain" lando asked calmly.

i didn't even know how to answer this question. i knew whatever i said he'd feel guilt, so i guess i just needed to say the truth.

"im not entirely sure lan, im not sure if it's everything ive been feeling or if it's just not my true passion... i have no genuine idea what i want to do with my life but i feel like i need to make the most of every different opportunity i get given" i replied.

"what are you thinking of doing?" he questioned.

"i want to go to uni and study public relations or business, just something along those lines, i feel like it's a bit of me, i want more out of life than just being in the spotlite, deep down i hate it!" i exclaimed.

"id support you in whatever you want to do, sit down and have a think about it, let me know and we can sort something out. i will be here for you no matter what my beautiful" lando said.

i truly did want to try something different, i guess im just scared to, im scared of failing, im scared of being let down.

lando and me sat for a few hours talking plans, he was filling me in on the rest of the week and how he'd be gone for the last gp of the year. i was sad that he was going but happy to be able to spend time with some new people. ria and aarav are coming over and im super excited to spend time with them, they seem so lovely.

i decided id spend the time lando is away thinking about what i want to do for my future. i needed to give it a proper think over before making my final decision.

me and lando decided to head out on a walk before he jets off tomorrow, i really enjoy spending my time with lando, he's such good company to be around. we took a stroll along the harbour and just talked about our future dreams, landos being world champion and me exploring the world and getting a degree plus advancing in music. i really hoped there was a way i could do university and music at the same time, i know id find a way.

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Landos Pov...

In my mind I knew that luisa would be in Abu Dhabi, I knew that she would try something. She kept trying to honest me. In my mind I had been thinking about seeing her one last time and hoping if I gave her what she wanted, she would leave us both alone. I didn't want to do anything with lusia again let alone see her, I didn't want to be unfaithful to nessa however I just wanted me and her to be finally at peace so we could be together. I don't want to hurt her with what I will probably have to do if I see her but I feel like it's the only way we can be happy... I just hope she doesn't flip.

I truly don't know what I would do without her, she is so smart, beautiful, talented and caring. She deserves so much more than what she's been going through. I couldn't imagine a life without her and that sounds stupid because I haven't even known her for that long... but the happiness she brings me is the sort nobody else has brought me before, something I've never experienced.

I know whatever is about to happen in Abu Dhabi wasn't going to be beautiful, but I know it needs to happen...