Sleepover // YOONMIN

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Jimin heard loud music on the other end. He frowned, wiping his wet face.
~ I hate you. He screamed. Taehyung and Namjoon suddenly alert, looking at the boy.
~ Jimin-ah...
~ I hate you so much.
Yoongi bit the inside of his lips. He was not in the state to talk at the moment.
It was supposed to be a special day, well it wasn't and this was the last thing he wanted to hear.

~ how dare you leave me after loving me like that.
~ w..what?
~ I found the diary and the pendrive you had kept for me.
- h..how did you..? Yoongi asked. Because even though he had prepared for Jimin, he wasn't going to give it to him after they broke up. He thought he had kept it quite well in a place where nobody would find out.
~ namjoon hyung gave it to me.
~ oh!

~ do you think about me? Jimin asked almost fiercely.
~ I do. He replied.
~ why? was it not a mistake all from the start? He asked.
Yoongi didn't reply.
~ do you miss me? Or the memories? Is it me or the feeling? Who do you miss hyung? Jimin cried.
Yoongi understood that Jimin was referring to lyrics of SDL when he said all that.
~ you decided to say these words to me today! It had to be today! Jimin screamed.
~ but I'm still thinking about you..Jimin. Yoongi said.
~ well does it matter? Because you didn't ever think you should have said that you love me. You never said it! Not even when I did! Hyung if you loved me you should said so! Jimin cried, his mouth went dry from screaming.
~ J..Jiminie I..I thought you knew already. Yoongi really tried hard to not let his tears fall.

~ but saying it is different hyung!! You had to assure me!! Why didn't you ever.
Do you have any idea how much I thought to myself maybe you don't like me anymore, the amount of doubts I had in my mind because after all it was me who was always madly crushing over you from the start.
~ I never thought you would doubt my love for you in the first place jiminie. But yes, I'm sorry I never said how madly deeply I'm in love with you, I really wasn't enough. Yoongi gulped, wiping the tear that slipped through his eye.
~ no..thats not what...
~ it's fine Jimin, that is the truth, you deserve someone who loves you better.
~ why don't you get it? You are that better hyung.
~ no Jimin, otherwise we wouldn't be here right now, away from each other.
~ hyung...his screaming had stopped and a soft voice spoke instead. Please don't give up on us just yet.
~ I never really wished for this to happen Jimin-ah. I have to go...

The call ends.

Jimin falls down on his knees, crying.
- you guys asked me to wait... for what?
For him to always give up on me? On us? I fucking love him why does not get that I don't want anyone else because they won't love me the way he did.
I cannot replace him. Why does he not get it!!!! Jimin broke into tears all over again. He wouldn't stop, he was bawling on the ground, snuggling into taehyung's chest as the boy held him close.

• • •

- Yoongi, wait no no, you're not crying again please! Adora said looking at him, wiping his eyes.
- I'm not. He lied.
- you cannot cry at your own party. Adora said cupping his cheeks.
- stop treating me like a baby. Yoongi scoffs dryly.
- well you are a baby. Jimin's baby. She laughed.
Yoongi looked down at the floor, making a small face.
- we broke up. He said.
- WHAT? she said surprised. You're not serious right now.
- I am.
- NO No YOU'RE NoT!
Yoongi sighed.
- it's been a month now.
- WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE THAT ANGEL!!!!! She couldn't believe it.
- that angel deserves better! Yoongi chuckled.
- Yoongi! What happened exactly? She asked.
- I don't owe you an explanation. He said
walking away from where he was standing.

Yoongi had thrown a small party for his crew because they had completed the album finally with release of the first song. He chose it to be that day, it was all decided. Just the difference was that instead of being here alone in japan he would have been with the love of his life celebrating their one year together.

It's not like Yoongi was enjoying his time in Japan being away from Jimin for almost a month now, not being able to see him, hear him, it was harder than he thought. So when Jimin called, his heart really fluttered. He wanted to tell Jimin that he missed him and wished they were together but 'I hate you' was the first thing Jimin said and yoongi was already weak in his knees.

• • •

Three days later, Yoongi had returned back to Korea.
He was living at his apartment that he shared with namjoon. Obviously.
While he was back, he only and only slept in. He was so tired from working countless hours. Frustrated, heartbroken even. He only slept away all his thoughts.

Jimin had no idea about it because yoongi made sure he doesn't know.
Was he running away from Jimin? Probably. Because he wanted Jimin to move on.
Was he hurting himself in that process? Definitely. Because still loved Jimin.

The whole time when Jimin was going through a big disaster Yoongi had kept himself busy from those thoughts. But now when he wasn't working really, he could feel the pain, every second of his day. It hurt so much to be without Jimin.

And one morning when he was eating his breakfast, he came across the invitation Jimin had posted on his story.
Invitation to his performance at college.
Yoongi smiled at that.

He was happy for Jimin. He was happy that Jimin was doing what he loved.
He loved it when Jimin was in his element. He knew anybody would fall in love with that star and why shouldn't they. He deserved all the love from around the universe and beyond.

Yoongi was so in love with him, but he deserved better...!

A/N
Who's gonna tell Yoongi that he's way better than anybody else! Probably Jimin himself hahah

Sorry for the super late update :(