When I was a little girl
I played with babies and stuffed bears
I got dirty outside
I played without a care
Then I was a preteen and started to care
I'd do my makeup every day
And I would try to do my hair
But here's the thing that makes me sad
What nobody knew at the time
Those were the years that it got bad
The screaming the fighting the calling of names
The leaving the drinking the pain
I didn't know who to blame
So I made myself feel the same pain
I made the inside match the out
I shielded my brothers from the constant rain
Teenage me was so obsessed with boys
So I went to each of them
They treated me like a toy
Then I met the one to help me heal
He started to save me
The rest was my deal
I started to heal my traumatic past
Therapy and medications
The process will last
I am loving myself more every day
I am listening to my body
I chose to live anyway
