Hardly do I get the experience of peace
When I do, all of my feelings decrease
I become too calm and a shell
After that is the epitome of hell
First starts the zoning out
The numbness consuming
Then the thoughts come running in
I don't know what they're about
It's a cluster of words I can't remember
Until they come together
It's a blur of memories and broken pieces
Then my anxiety increases
When will it go wrong?
Something bad will happen
I just want to feel something
By making these feelings stop
I wish I could shut them down
Take them out of my brain
The fact that I can't
Is driving me insane
Where did I go wrong?
Why is karma choosing me?
I wish I could fix everything
I wish someone, anyone, would see
I'm trying to better myself
Then the thoughts creep in
And out goes my happiness
And all my light within
