show me yours | matty healy

chapter forty-two

November 3rd 2017

Tommie had woken up alone in Phoebe's apartment, with many missed calls and texts of people asking if she was okay.

Her brows had furrowed and she'd hesitated to call Adam back first. He'd called her eleven times, and although they haven't spoken since that day he came to the apartment she still worries something is wrong.

Her mind goes to her grandparents, but she spoke to her nan yesterday. They were on their way to a trip to Tenby in the caravan with the dog, they're fine. Unless something happened on the trip.

Nan can't swim. Granch got sick. Or a heart attack, or an accident-

"Tom? Tom, thank god, are you still in LA-?"

It's then she realises how late into the LA afternoon it is, her clock reads one o'clock and she realises she'd probably been up way longer than she should've been writing away until her heart's content (until she passed out from exhaustion).

"What's going on?"

"Matty's missing."

This is the first time she's heard his name in months, and her heart stops.

She sits up straighter, both Button and Max looking up at her in question. "What?"

"We tried to stage an intervention, shit-" She hears him sigh, can hear Ross and George arguing in the background with another voice that sounds a lot like Jamie, "He took off, a few days ago, he's been doing it alot lately, he's never been gone this long."

"Where are you?"

"San Jose."

She sighs and climbs out of bed, putting her phone on speaker and setting it on the bedside table. She grabs a pair of jeans from the chair she'd thrown them onto last night, getting a random t-shirt and throwing it on quickly, not even bothering with the effort of finding a bra. She does however, go to the effort of saying goodbye to the two dogs before shoving on her shoes, grabbing her bag that holds her essentials (keys, wallet, journal, lip balm, cigs, lighter and some other unnecessary shit.).

"I'll come meet you, you in the place we stayed in last time?"

"No, we're in the fancy one across the road you liked the look of." She hears more arguing, and then a door slams, "It's seven hours, Tommie, you- stay in LA, I just- has he tried calling you?"

"No, no he hasn't. I haven't talked to him since TRNSMT."

Adam sighs, "He's not himself, Tommie, I don't know what's going on with him. He's in his own head, doing so many fucking drugs, Tom, I-" He sighs, she hears a sob-like sound get stuck in his throat, "We're trying but he's not listening, saying he needs to clear his head-"

Suddenly it dawns on Tommie and she pauses halfway down the steps outside of her building, "What has he said?" She asks quickly, fumbling to get the Uber app up as she walks down the street, "Tell me exactly what he said before he left, Ads."

Adam sighs, stutters a few times as he tries to remember the conversation he had with Matty five days prior, "Um, something about the drugs helping him sleep, clearing his mind, helping him write and create, said that the drugs are his muse or some philosophical shit. I-I don't know, Tommie."

She watches her Uber pull up and puts the phone to ear, "Ads, I'll call you back, don't worry alright."

"Tom, please don't-"

"Don't worry."

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The studio is a mess, clothes thrown over floors, crumpled up pieces of paper, cans of beer, coke and all different kinds of things ruin her path to the booth.