°•○♡ poetry ♡○•°

Emotionless

November 5, 2023

♡♡♡

"I am often told not to look so glum,
That I have to bare a smile,
But how am I supposed to do that when I feel so numb?

I am often told not to lash out,
Not to show the anger that flows through me,
But how am I supposed to stay calm when all I want to do is scream?

I am often told not to be so naive,
That I have a poor lack of judgement,
But how am I supposed to change when all my heart tells me is to be sweet?

I am often told not to cry,
For that just shows how weak I am,
But how am I supposed to do that when my heart has already died?

I am often told to do better,
For I was never good enough,
But how am I supposed to do that when taunting words play in my head like a broken record?

I am often told this,
Over and over,
Once again feeling so numb,
Now I look at the mirror and wonder who I have become.

When did sweet words turn sour?
When did loving eyes turn into liquid fire?
When did my heart become so hollow?
When did the shine fade away from my smile?
When did this all happen?
When did I become this beautiful mess?
When did I lose myself as a person?
When did I become so emotionless?"

♡♡♡