Lost and found

chapter 18

Sniffling and wiping away my tears that had nearly dried up I march into the kitchen and plop myself down on one of the stools near the counter. Keeping silent and not saying a word I stared at the two who sat across from me

"he knows" was the only thing I could utter at that moment 

"oh" Wonwoo nodded understandingly 

"he knows what?" Mingyu asked confused as he stared back and forth between us two

"Is it weird that I feel happy that he knows? I feel like this huge weight has been taken off my shoulders and that I can finally breath a little" I smile rolling my shoulders back as I straighten my posture 

"what are you weirdos on about?" Mingyu groans interrupting Wonwoo who rolled his eyes before smacking the back of his head lightly

"you dumbass, where have you been this whole time? he's talking about the fact that Jihan knows" 

"Jihan knows what?" Me and Wonwoo stared at him in disbelief. Seriously how clueless can this kid be

"you dummy Jihan knows about Joshua...he knows that he is his dad" I mutter the last part 

"but how?" Mingyu yells hopping up to his feet as his chair falls back 

"Apparently he had heard us guys talking about him to Seungkwan and Nonnie and on top of that his teacher was talking about successful people or something and he was one of them. Then all the kids there were teasing him and asking if Joshua was his dad because they looked the same" I sighed explaining to them "you know how kids are...always curious to know more. I just don't know what to do" 

"what do you mean why would you do anything?"

"you know Ji he isn't going to keep this information to himself and keep quiet about it, he is definitely going to go and look for Joshua. He told me he won't but I mean the kids curious he has never seen his other dad and now that he has a clue about his whereabouts he isn't going to let this go" 

"he has a point I mean if I was Ji I would want to know more" we both nodded understandingly with Mingyu's statement I mean who wouldn't be curious to know 

"I just don't know what to do now? do I just let him"

"It's up to you hannie your his dad, you raised him from the start, you know what is good for him, but I think you should just let him do whatever he wants if he wants to look for him just let him try I guess" 

"right I guess I should just let him find out on his own. Just let destiny do it's thing"

The three of us sat there in silence, just staring off into space when there was a sudden interruption snapping us all out of dreamland 

"who's stupid phone is that?" I growled looking between the two to see who it was

"oops it was mine" I laugh sheepishly rubbing the back off my neck before picking up the call not bothering to check the ID

"yes?"

"Hello to you too anyways Hyung are you guys all set for the party tomorrow" 

"party?" I asked as I eyes the two who looked at me just as confused 

"yeah Kwanon's birthday par- nah don't tell me you had forgotten you idiot" Seungkwan scolded me over the phone as I gasped suddenly remembering the day he told me 

"oh no I didn't forget I was just tricking you of course I remembered his birthday me and Kwanon are practically besties I would never forget his birthday" I try laughing it off as seungkwan lets out a sound of disapproval 

"mhmm sure you remembered... you better be here on time tomorrow" 

"11am right?" 

"no you dumbass its 2pm that's the time where everyone is free. I want to take family photos with all of us together" he sounded excited and I felt kind of guilty for forgetting 

"alright well then I got to go and check if I have everything I'll talk to you tomorrow then"

"mkay Hyung love you, see you" 

Ending the phone call, I turned to them and shrieked 

"I completely forgot about Kwanon's birthday party tomorrow. I need to go shopping to go and buy him a present" I rush and grab my keys, writing a note and leaving it on the table for Jihan incase he woke up and I was still out 

"Alright Hyung then good luck We need to start to head out to open the shop" nodding I bid the two goodbye and leave for my car. 

On the drive there I thought about what a ten year old boy would like for his birthday. I normally buy Jihan Lego sets, he enjoys them but every kid is different. Me and Kwanon have not really spent that much time together and so I don't really know what the kid likes that much but I hope that me and him become close in the future. He is my nephew after all. Parking my car in the parking lot I had this sudden wave of uneasiness pass over me. Brushing it off as thinking it was because I don't go out by myself much I headed into the shopping mall.

Looking around at all the different shops I found myself being pulled towards this toy shop. Cute little plushies all around the room, wherever you look. The shop itself was decorated beautifully. Bright colors all over the walls with little stickers. It looked like toy heaven. Jihan would absolutely love this so much that he would want to live here and never want to go home.

Finally deciding to get him, I decided to just buy him a Lego set it was simple and cute. I also brought some for myself too who doesn't just love Legos. Paying for the stuff, the cashier handed me my stuff in this cute little recycling bag that had a picture of some Lego man on the front of it saying 'please visit again'. Heading towards the door and admiring my bag I found myself face planted into someone rock hard chest. Pulling away I looked up apologetically letting out a quick sorry before making eye contact with the figure in front of me and letting out a shaky breath. It felt as if life around us had just stopped, everyone around me slowly disappearing except for him. Me and him both stared at each other in shock. His eyes widening as if he could not accept the fact that I was actually standing here right in front of him

"Jeonghan" he whispered as he tried reaching his hand to touch my shoulder to reassure himself that I was actually here and not just a figment of his imagination. Him doing that snapped me back to reality not really knowing what to do I did the only thing that I have been good at doing whenever I find myself in difficult situations I ran as fast as I could not able to look back and risk seeing his shocked, tearful face.