LADY SATANS

part 48

As soon as she dropped the bag ,her heart stopped. Her breath uneven and her eyes wide open. Her back was still arched and her one hand in the air that tried to grab the bag before it fell. She gulped ,mustering up courage and turned her head to directly make eye contact with him in his bed. He was laying in the bed ,his eyes wide open  and glaring into her soul. Terrified,shivers travelled down her spine and she stood straight. And started fidgeting with her hands. Opening and closing her mouth nervously as if trying to find words to explain her prescence in his room. And why she accidentally dropped the bag. Clearly shivering she made eye contact with him again. Terror peeping from her eyes. A few drops of tears almost glistering in her eyes. Yeah that was how much she was afraid of that person. Whenever she saw him , whenever she felt his prescence ,her body always reacted like that. She knew he did not like her prescence. He did not like talking ,listening or even seeing her ,so she tried her best to avoid him but somehow always ended up in a situation like she was currently in. He was still in his bed glaring through her soul , quietly watching her stand and shiver in front of him. That was even more scary. His reaction ,his quietness,his coldness ,he was unpredictable. He slid out of the covers and guess what ?  This was her second time watching him shirtless.  The scars on his body making her even more anxious and horrified. He got off the bed almost jumping off it and advanced towards her. Watching him advance towards her ,she got even more  terrified and took a few steps back. But he seemed to not stop. Shivering like hell she kept taking steps backwards until her back touched the cold walls of the room. His room was like him !! Cold ! He took huge steps and stopped just a few inches away from her. Kept his one hand on the wall besides her face. And started examining her nervousness ,her fear,her shivers and her avoiding eye contact. With same cold expressions and emotionless eyes he took just one step closer to her. She squeezed herself further back into the wall to avoid contact with his Bare chest. Feeling his scent and breath Soo close to her made her almost pass out. She was looking the other way but her face was burning due to his eyes that were piercing into her face. Clearing his throat he spoke

" Seems like you really enjoy getting a view of my scars. Do you ? or are you here to get punished ?"

His words even more cold ,gathering every last ounce of boldness in her existence she made eye contact with him and just nodded her head

" No !I ...was....here.....jhope ..."

He kept his one finger on her lips forcing her to be quiet.

" Shh shhh ! This is the last warning ! I don't want you to say anything about my scars or me in general okay girl !"

After saying these words he stepped back giving her space to leave his cold room. She still nervous and shaking picked up the bag and almost fleed from his room.

After a while everyone was in the lounge

Melissa :" taehyung! Shouldn't we .."

She was about to say something when Jin entered the lounge a bit sad and embarrassed. Taehyung immediately looked at him and asked with his eyes about what was wrong.

" Boss ! We have a problem !a few cameras are not being hacked today. Like I tried last night and I did hack them but I don't know what's...."

Taehyung didn't give a reaction instead he acted normal and asked
" What's the solution ?"

Jin :" olivia and I need more time. At night , we'll be able to .."

Taehyung:' ok ! ".

Just one word okay and he then left the lounge probably to his room. He was like that. In his prescence everyone was under his influence. It felt as if until he continues to lead all of them nothing will go wrong. Jin immediately rushed to his room which was followed by Olivia. They had to hack those stupid cameras until that night. Namjoon felt like he needed some air so he went to the rooftop only to find taehyung already there. Roaming here and there. He looked anxious. He never shared his feelings ,his emotions ,his worries with anyone. But sometimes he used to share a few with namjoon but that was all. His face looked like he needed someone at that moment. Namjoon walked towards him stopping a few steps away from him. He welcomed him with a soft welcoming but sad smile.

Namjoon :" everything alright ?"

Taehyung:" have you loved someone ?"

Namjoon started looking at him with even more worries this was the first time he was sharing something with him like that. Maybe he needed a listener at that time.  

Taehyung:" I just realized, what was between me and Layla, was never love. During our relationship,I did cherish her !. I did like her caring for me. I liked all her talks and I was thankful to her for everything. But hyung ! I never loved her. I thought I did but it was not love. !"

Namjoon sat down and so did taehyung. He was talking without looking at namjoon just looking at the clouds, he started speaking again.

" I fell Soo hard for Melissa. Now that I am in love I understand what is love ! Love is not just caring for the person. It's their prescence. It's their scent ,it's their smile ,their eyes ,their voice ,their hands ,their entire existence. To crave all that. To feel like you would die if you don't get that. ..........it feels As if she casted a spell on me. I can't breathe properly until I get a glimpse of her. Just looking at her makes me smile. ".

There was silence after this then he spoke again.

" After loosing my little angel ,my mother ,my father. I was Soo alone. Then Layla came but she was not in my destiny. Not in my fate. I felt useless roaming around in this world alone. Then I found you guys. You six became my brothers. But the desire .........the desire to live and to love. It vanished. ....I was just completing my time in this world waiting for death. Until. ......."

He smiled. .
" Until she came ! She became my healer. At first I was afraid to love her thinking that just like all the people I loved she will go away from me too. But then .........then I realized love is not something you choose ! It's not something you can control. It just happens at any time with any one. But you can't love the same twice. I feel like she is my other half and without her I would be empty.......now. .....now I have the desire to live. .......to live for her ,to protect her from the entire universe. To give her all the happiness of the universe. When I am with her I feel like I am Alive! ...........I want to live now hyung. For Melissa and for myself. I want to get married to her and spend our old days together. I want to have family with her.  .......you know if the entire universe disappears but only Melissa is left I would not feel that the entire universe is missing. The world won't be empty if she is with me.  But if she disappears. The world.  ... ...no !I would also be empty with no soul, just body. Maybe not even body. I feel like I would stop breathing !"

And namjoon was surprised at how much he had changed. The things he was talking about didn't make sense. That kind of things only happened in books in movies. He had seen a lot of couples but he had never seen any man talk like that about someone. He stood up, patted taehyung's shoulders as if comforting him and telling him that everything will be fine.

And Melissa who was standing at the door had heard every single word. And she couldn't make herself believe.  What had she heard. Someone like taehyung. He cherished her Soo much. He loved her like crazy. Feeling guilty,she went downstairs. It was not the time to think about all this. They had a huge task standing in front of them. 

Night .......

Taehyung:" okay so the plan ......."