𝘚𝘖 𝘉𝘈𝘋, 𝘮𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘴𝘤𝘩𝘮𝘪𝘥𝘵

𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘵𝘦𝘳 1

5 𝘠𝘌𝘈𝘙𝘚 𝘈𝘍𝘛𝘌𝘙 𝘓𝘌𝘈𝘝𝘐𝘕𝘎

𝙴𝚟𝚎𝚕𝚢𝚗

𝗧𝗪: abuse & self harm. 

"Stop! Please!" Evelyn cries in her crouched position while her hands are held over her head. Andre just got done throwing a glass vase above her head for some reason she can't understand. What had she done this time?

Andre stomps his way over to the scared women and grabs her throat, forcing her to stand on her two wobbly legs. "Stop? I'm just getting started." Andre throws her to the opposite side of the room and pins her body under his with both hands above her head. Getting closer to her face, he yells, "You don't understand, I have the power here, alright? I gave you everything. Clothes, food, a damn roof under your head! I'll do as I damn please."

Evelyn starts to panic. His weight on top of her makes it very hard to move. She can't breathe properly. She kicks her legs trying to create some distance between him and her. "Please get off! I can't breathe! What did I do?". 

Andre takes one of his hands a moves it to create a sharp pain across her cheek, then put his hand back on her wrist with more force. Evelyn's looks him straight in his eyes after her head was back in its original position after the slap she had earned. With teary eyes, she stops moving her body. The faster he makes his point across, the faster she will be able to get away. 

"I don't want to do this to you Evie baby. It hurts me more than it hurts you. I don't want to have to resort to this, but you give me no choice! You do NOT get to prance around the grocery store like a whore, gaining attention from all the men like some kind of slut!". 

Evelyn's mind is drawn in two places. First, she remembers how this is exactly what happened the first time she was ever hurt. Her mother. The grocery story. The "gaining attention". The second, is at the grocery store last night. She kept her head down, grabbing the items she needed to make the man on her his dinner. She didn't speak to anyone. She paid and left, how did she gain attention?

"I'm sorry! It won't happen again. Please, can I get up?" she forces out with a shaky voice. She just wanted to get up and grab ice for her now bruised wrist. Andre huffs out a big breath and slowly lets go of her wrist and stands up. Evelyn scurried away from the man and sat against the wall, looking over her black and blue wrist. 

She inspects her hands. She hadn't noticed, but the glass from the vase gave her a little cut on the outside of her palm. Tears start to fall. She knew what she had to do. She was leaving. 

Andre makes his way over to her crouching to her level. Looking at her wrist, he lets out a sigh and states "I didn't want that to happen baby. I love you. You know I love you right?". Evelyn looks up at him with tears running down her cheeks. She's not staying here another night. She stayed far to long. After every fight, he says the same thing. And she gives the same answer. 

"I know. I love you too. I'm going to get some ice and clean my hand up. I'll start the list of items you need me to do right after.". Evelyn wipes her tears away and gives a very fake and small smile. 

The man gives her a kiss on her forehead and stands up. "I'll see you when I get back from work." With that, he grabs his keys and leaves. 

Evelyn instantly starts to sob. This wasn't the first time he has done this, and she knows it won't be the last. She just needed to put up with him for a while longer so she could save up some money and leave this hell hole. After a few moments, she gets up and heads to the bathroom to  take care of her hand. Looking in the mirror, she can't help but wonder what is wrong with her. Why is she so hard to love? What did she do to not be treated like a human being? Is she just that unlikeable? Was she also unlovable?

She looks to the right of the sink and there is a razor blade. She knows she shouldn't, but the thoughts in her head are stronger than her heart at the moment. She grabs it with blurry vision. Taking glances at the item in her hand and her right forearm, she goes for it. Pressing the blade into her skin and dragging it to the side, she creates horizontal lines. After doing the step 4 more times, she drops the blade and stares at what she had done. The slight stings on her arm overpowers the thoughts in her head, creating a daze mindset. 

Knowing she can't undo what she had just done, she cleans herself up. Looking at herself in the mirror for a second time, she just stares at the person there. She doesn't know this person. She doesn't like what she sees. People who know her, wouldn't recognize this girl. 

After her arm and hand was taken care of, she leaves for the kitchen to get ice for her bruised wrists. They were already so dark. Evelyn sits on the couch and starts to think where she can go. She was leaving tonight. 5 years with this man is way too long. 

She missed Mike. She missed the way everything was so easy around him. Evelyn missed him so bad. Does he miss her? Does he even remember her? Is he mad at her for leaving? Is he angry she hasn't called? Evelyn decided right then and there, she couldn't go back to him, not yet. 

Once the ice packs are nearly melted, she put them back and grabbed a duffle bag. The duffle bag she had when she left the first time. She started to throw all her belongings into it. She didn't have much, since she left with barely anything, and Andre never got her anything in their 4 years of being together. Fucking asshole. 

Evelyn had just under 2 hours to get out of the apartment. Right now, she was calling her co-worker Ness. She had a strong friendship with him. He was very nice to her, helping her out any chance he got. After the line rung for a couple seconds, she was greeted by her friend. 

"Hey E, what's up? Everything okay?". Ness was a smart guy, and Evelyn wasn't very good at covering the evidence that Andre left on her body. When he asked her about her, she tried the 'I'm very clumsy' excuse on him, didn't work. He knew what was really up, but she made him swear he wouldn't say anything to anyone. 

"I'm so sorry for calling Ness, but I'm leaving. I was hoping I could stay with you for a while? It shouldn't be that long, just until I can find a permanent place." Evelyn hated asking for help. She always felt like she would owe that person her life. Her mother also told her, 'If you can't do it on your own, don't do it at all'. She took that lesson hard. "I have money I can give your for my stay as ren-".

"No money. Need me to pick you up? I can be there in 20 minutes.". 

Evelyn sighed with relief. She had a place to go. A safe place. "That would be great, thank you. See you soon." After hanging up, she placed her shoes on her feet, grabbed her bag, and waited outside the apartment complex waiting for her friend.

After waiting, she sees her friends car pull up. She gets up from the steps and makes her way over to Ness. She puts her bag in the back and shuts the door. She opens the passenger side door and is met with her friends voice. 

"I'm proud of you, you know that right? This is very brave of you. You are doing the right thing." Evelyn shuts the car door and gives a smile to Ness. He was always so nice to her. She buckles herself up and stares out the window as they drive to Ness's home. 

𝗔𝗡: hi my loves! first chapter, whoop whoop! i hope you enjoyed, sorry it's a little lengthy. i really liked writing this. i'm super excited for the rest of the story! remember to leave a vote! drink some water, eat something, and take care of yourself. i'm proud of you, mwah!