Late Night Poems

Is Love Too Much to Ask?

I like you.
And not in the "whenever we see each other I have a good time" kind of way.
More like the "I can't help but smile when you're around" kind of way.
Or the "I just want you to see me" kind of way.

Its the best and worst feeling to want to be with you.

Because for once I have someone I can think of and just smile lazily.

Someone I can see as more than anyone else in the room.

Someone I can hope to spend time alone with.

Someone who I can imagine being my everything.

But you're also the person I know I can't have.

The person I know will never like me back.

The person who probably loves someone else.

The person I wish would text me but never does.

I crave affection and attention
But at the same time feel utterly and completely undeserving.
I want you to love me but don't wish the unfairness of having to love me upon you.

Is love too much to ask for for a person like me?
Will anyone ever look at me and think
"I could fall in love with her one day"

Will they ever think
"I wanna ask her out".

Will I ever get the question
"Can I get your number?"

Or
"Will you go out with me?"

I can't help but think I'll be one of those people who are meant to be alone forever.
One of the people who never find love of any kind.
The one who is left unloved and unwanted on the sidelines.

Who knows
Maybe I have someone out there waiting for me.

Maybe the boy I like actually likes me back for some inexplicable reason.

But everyday I try to keep my hopes down
So that my heart doesn't break entirely in the end.

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