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It is the longest ten minutes of my life, contemplating what this means to the both of us and if the outcome is a less favorable one, will I end up like Vusi? Or even worse I don't even remember the conversation I have had with Lesedi, that is if she even speaks. So you can imagine right now trying to remember how her skin feels like or how soft her lips are.
"Here..." She hands me the pregnancy tests
Yes, we did the imaginable. I requested an uber to the nearest pharmacy store still opened, got there and picked three tests just to be sure. I was not the one who suggested that though but Lesedi. She has been playing her part quite well of trying to turn me into a nervous wreck, she almost cried when I could not find the right words to say after she just told me I might be a dad. Do I want to see the tests results? hell no.
"Did you look at them?" I ask picking one up then facing Lesedi, who just shakes her head.
I know what I must look for, yes two lines. I feel sweaty, and this damn hoodie is not helping me at all. But here goes nothing...I look at the test and my throat feels dry suddenly.
"What does it say?" she asks almost in a whisper
Should I celebrate or cry right now? what do people in my position do, in front of a girl whom you hardly know nor have any feelings for?
"Ndavhe" Lesedi now louder
"It is one line..." I answer trying not to sound relieved.
Her face falls instantly, is she sad that she is not pregnant or just relieved as I am?
"Lesedi, are you okay?" I ask still confused about what to do.
She starts sobbing with both her hands covering her face. Not what I expected, so she is crying Ndavhe...what on earth do you do? My first thought is to embrace her, I dismiss that immediately. I got close to Taki, she left me. Fell for Phindu and got dumped, I cannot let another girl close. What am I saying, she has already gotten close, we had sex so instead of being a jerk the least I can do is to hold her. I walk to her and embrace her, however still leaving a safe distance between us. She invades that little space I left, allowing herself to lose her posture and falling deep in my embrace.
"I am so sorry Lesedi..." I say to her
She doesn't say anything but hold on to me tightly, as if that is what she wants from me. Okay, I can do this, what I cannot do however is talk about that night. I have no idea how to, she has been emotional ever since she got here, so if she realizes I have no idea what transpired that day, it might get worse.
"You don't remember what happened that night do you?" she asks still in my arms now moving an inch.
I should lie, yes that will remedize the situation.
"I know you don't, Kea told me. At first I was hurt when you didn't even call to check up on me, but then it hit me hard that you were too drunk night. And I was too naïve to think you would even give me attention on your normal state of mind." she frees herself and looks down.
It is like she is avoiding eye contact with me, or maybe she does not know how to act just like me.
"I am not a heavy drinker, so I can imagine that that night things got out of hand. But Lesedi you are beautiful, every guy on his right state will..."
"Don't feel for me please and end up patronizing me." she looks at me and this time I manage to get a good look at her.
The first thing that draws my attention its her eyes, she has beautiful brown eyes. It is amazing how visible the color is even is the dim light.
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