One Hope ∞ Nishimura Riki

Chapter 25: yes or no?

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Ella POV

I was so good with him.
I had the impression that being with him made me feel better, it hurt less. I felt healthier. Maybe it was just because I liked him? Or just because he was good to me? I thought he was the only one that could save me, who could help me. But I'm not going to talk to him about my disease. I didn't know if I was going to get better.

The nurse came in the room. I was actually a little afraid to see her, afraid she'd give me bad news.

"Ella, you've been here for 4 months not to mention the coma period after your accident . But I have some news to tell you." she said.

"Good ones? Otherwise I'd rather not know."

"Listen to me. Good or bad, you have to hear it."

"Go ahead and tell me."

"You'll be cured. I don't know how it is possible but you'll get better. We'd given up hope of seeing you recover, but everything changes so suddenly."

"What do you mean? "

"Since the other time you had a heart attack. I analized your condition. And your condition is much better than I thought possible. You have to stay for a week or two but if nothing more happens you'll be able to go home. In fact, I have the impression that this famous Riki is like a kind of medecine for you. You got sick when he was away, and since he's been back you've been getting better and better. Keep this boy close to you."

I couldn't believe it. I had been ill for several months now, I didn't even know why, and now I was finally cured. And I can go back home now?

I was smiling. I was so happy. I started crying. I picked up my phone and called Riki.

"Hello Riki."

"Hello Ella!"

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It was finally time for me to get out of here. I was waiting for Riki to pack my bags and get out of here for good.
I was so happy to leave finally this hospital. I spent so much of my day staring at the ceiling that I felt like I was in a prison. The only time I felt like I existed was when Jungwon came. And now Riki was here with me.

I hadn't yet confessed to Riki. I wasn't ready for that. I thought it wasn't the good time. I was still afraid he'd leave me alone.

A noise woke me from my thoughts. Riki appeared at the door. He was smiling. He had such warmth in his eyes.

"You can finally come with me! I'm so excited that you can stay out of here with me! " he said.

"Before going anywhere would you help me pack my bags?"

"Of course. Let's go."

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He helped me with all my stuff. He folded my clothes. When we had packed up everything, he took my suitcase and I followed him outside.
We went in his car, to his home.

It had been a long time since I didn't go there. I was so happy to see it again . This couch were I stayed so many nights at his side. Where I watched movies with him. I laughed with him and everything we did together. So many memories. Unforgettable.

"Are you happy Ella? You smile like it was the first time for you to come here."

"I'm happy , yes. I can go everywhere I want. You can't imagine how happy I am.

"Are you really better now?"

"Yes, nurses told me that ."

"Don't lie. Today and all days that follow I'll come and see you. Much more than I've done so far. You won't need Jungwon hyung.

"He can help me too. He's my friend. I can take care of myself too. "

"I'll take care of you for you. "

I stared at him. I could watch him like that for hours.

"Do you want to eat ramyeon tonight? " I said.

"Let's go for ramyeon! "

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Riki POV

I was so happy. Even if she would never confesse I didn't care as long as I could stay with her. I really wanted to know, but I preferred to give her time.
We were watching TV, while eating. It was already dark outside. Night had already fallen. We'd spent the day talking and imagining all the things we could do now that she was out of the hospital.

"Riki?"

"Yes Ella?"

"Don't you want to know what I feel for you?"

My heart missed a beat. I was choking on my noodles. I didn't know if I really wanted to know her feelings. I was afraid that she had fallen in love with Jungwon. It would break my heart so much. I wasn't sure what I'd heard the other time, when she had spoken to Jungwon. And the more the days went by, the more I felt I had misheard her and she had said the exact opposite of loving me.

"No. "

"Why?"

"I don't want. I watch TV, I'm focused."

"Okay." she answered. I saw her lowering her head. I sighed.

"I feel good loving you. I don't want to be stop by your feelings. I like being delusional. I would have less pain this way."

"It would hurt you more Riki, being delusional it's not a good thing."

"I don't care. "

"You care. You have to care about what I feel to save time and energy. Otherwise you'll be wasting your time."

"Please Ella..." I was starting to feel sad, disappointed. The way she spoke made me understand what she was going to tell me.

"Riki."

"No I d-"

"Ok, I respect that. Sorry. "

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Ella POV

The evening after eating ramyeon we went up to his room and started watching movies .
It was fun because we watched comedy films so we laughed so much making fun of the situations we saw.

After a moment, we just lay down on the bed and continued watching the film. I wasn't afraid to stay here with him, he'd never do anything bad to me. We ate pop corn while watching full of films, almost all night long. But I was getting tired...

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Riki POV

It was almost 1 am and we continued watching films. Suddenly Ella put her head on my chest while watching the film. I felt my heart racing, I didn't know what to do. Better do nothing. She smelled so good.
My heart was exploding in my chest. I could hear my heartbeat outside of my body.
I didn't even watch TV anymore. I was staring at her.

I put my arms around her waist. Feeling her body so close to mine made me so happy.

We stayed like that. It made me remember the first time we watched a film when she hugged me because she was scared. But now it wasn't the same. She wasn't scared. She just stayed like that for no reason.
It made me so confused. I wanted to push her away. But my heart didn't want it .

Why do you play with my heart Ella?

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