GODDAMMIT JAMES! (NovaHD)

Chapter Twenty-Three

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It's been awhile again. Uh sorry about all this. Song in the side is Dust Bowl Dance by Mumford & Sons because I have a love for it and I think it gives off the mood of most of this chapter. :)
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                                                                       ***Kevin's P.O.V***

           I have decided it's time to find a place of my own. I can't live at Aleks and James' house anymore, I'm a burden at this point. Plus, I'm over Aleks now, and this time I mean it. I really need a fresh start.

          I move into the apartment in two days. There's already a guy living there so I hope we can get along. I have everything arranged to move my stuff. The apartment is only a few blocks from the office.

          I have yet to tell everyone, I'm telling the group tomorrow. I just hope James and Aleks aren't offended that I don't want to stay with them anymore, but I'm sure they'll appreciate it. A couple like that need the place to themselves anyway.

                                                                      ***Jordan's P.O.V***

           "Jordan, I'm sorry but..." He trailed off, getting nervous. I stood there blankly at the floor, knowing what was coming. I knew exactly what he was about to say, and just thinking about it made my heart sink. My eyes began to water and my lips began to quiver. I felt like my legs were going to give out any second.

           "I want to break up..." He said quietly, looking down at his feet. It sounded like it hurt him to say, but how could he be upset when he's the one breaking up with me? We sat in silence for a few minutes, both looking down at the pale tile on the kitchen floor, waiting for one of us to say something.

           "Seamus..." I paused, taking in a breath to stop myself from whimpering or crying. I sniffled and raised my head,"Why?" I managed to ask, looking up into his beautiful, blue eyes, which only made me hurt more. "I-I-I'm sorry, Jordan," he stuttered. And with that, he was gone. 

          I fell to my knees, not because I couldn't stand, but because I didn't want to. I had officially given up on it all at that moment; given up on life."Why?" I sobbed to myself, letting my tears fall, not caring anymore. I can't believe he's gone... I sat and thought for a minute. Is this because of Aleks? Is he really leaving me because of Aleks? What is he thinking? I love him, Aleks loves James. I returned my hands to my face and began to cry into them, making them wet.

          The sun's light grew brighter to my eyes as I slowly awoke from my slumber. I sat for a moment, sighed then got up.

          "I wouldn't be surprised if that dream came true," I said to myself as I put on my clothes. I then walked over to my night stand and unplugged my phone from its charger. The screen lit up after being disconnected, revealing notifications; 7 missed calls from Seamus along with several texts from him as well.

          I don't want to talk to him, but I should at least hear what he has to say. I clicked on the first voicemail taking the time to listen to it, then the next and so on until the last one. Essentially, they were all of him apologizing, and saying crap like, "I didn't mean it," and, "I love you so much, Jordan." Like as if he really did.

          I checked his texts next, nothing new, just more of the same garbage. I deleted all of the voice-mails and texts, I'm done with this. I then got up to go make breakfast.

                                                                    ***Seamus' P.O.V***

          Why won't he pick up!? I have to apologize... I feel so awful. I'm such a fucking idiot, I can't believe I said those things. I hate myself so much but I honestly can't get over Aleks and it's so stupid.

          I surpassed my boiling point and threw my phone across my room, throwing my head into my hands. At this point, I was beyond angry at myself, I wanted to murder myself, but not in a suicide kind of way, just murder because I'm so angry at myself. As I heard the smash it made when it hit the wall, I cursed under my breath, "Fuck." 

          I lifted my head up and walked over to the smashed phone that lied on the floor, shattered, glass surrounding it. I picked it up and examined the broken phone. I did that to an innocent phone... an innocent Jordan. He was madly in love with me but like with the phone, I chucked him at a wall without thinking and he broke. The shattered phone represents Jordan's shattered heart; I'm the mad man who was the one who splintered his heart and tore him apart. 

          I'm a monster.

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Hey, long time no write, sorry for it being so short. I really hope you guys understand I do care about this fanfic and I'm trying really hard to keep writing but I guess I have lost interest in writing over the time but I will finish this fanfic in time. I will also write more oneshots because they are way easier to produce and write, once again, my apologies. Love you all, thanks for the continued support! ^_^