GODDAMMIT JAMES! (NovaHD)

Chapter Three

Hai everyone. Third chapter, this one will contain and very inspirational poem that I found of tumblr. It is close to my heart and I hope you enjoy it aswell. There's also another song in the side, it's the piano version of This Is Gospel by Panic! At The Disco bc Ryan Ross.

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***Seamus' P.O.V***

Tonight was the night, I was going to tell Aleks how much I love him... But how? I can't just blurt it out, it'd be weird and how do I do it without the guys hearing? I don't want them to hate me for being gay, especially being gay for Aleks. I sighed, returning from my thoughts and checked the time on my phone. I should probably get going, I got in my car and drove to the office. I know exactly how I'm going to tell Aleks.

I was there for a few minutes and as I was throwing things at Dan, Aleks and James walked through the door. I spent the last two hours thinking of when I should do what I've been planning; to tell Aleks I love him. I take a deep breath in walking away from the group, I walked into a random office and turned off the lights, praying for him to walk by, he finally did. I pulled him into the room and shut the door. He started to squeal but I put my hand over his mouth. "Shhh, it's okay Aleks..." I said softly, he kept squealing and squirming even after my words. I sighed and let go of him, "It's just me Aleks," I sighed while flicking on the lights. "Dude, what the fuck? You almost gave me a heart attack!" he yelled. I cut him off with a kiss but I felt someone pull me back by my shirt. "What the fuck Seamus!?" the voice said angrily, I could tell it was James. I looked at Aleks, he looked scared, "Seamus, what the fuck!? You know I have a girlfriend!" Aleks yelled. "Ex-girlfriend..." I mumbled, "Seriously, what the fuck is wrong with you Seamus?" he snapped, "I-I-I I just..." I trailed off, I couldn't say anything else, the tears started to form in my eyes and I ran out of the office to my car. I have a fear of rejection and it took me so long to think of a way to tell him... a-a-and he shuts me down?? How could've I been so stupid, now all of the guys will find out and they will hate me as much as James and Aleks do.

        I sat and cried for a few minutes before starting my car. I saw Jordan running out to my car, I didn't know whether to drive or stay... Was he going to come and yell at me too? Tell me how fucking dumb it was to kiss Aleks? It's not my fucking choice. I never chose to love Aleks, as the great Brendon Urie said, "Love is not a choice." I decided to wait and hear what the guy had to say. He got in the passenger's seat, "Look, if you're here to yell at me like everyone else-" he cut me off with a kiss. I was too sad to not let it happen, to be honest I needed it. I honestly loved it, his lips on mine just... It feels so right... He beamed his cute smile before saying those four words no one has ever said to me, "I love you, Seamus," he quickly got out of the car and ran back into the office. I could see the other guys standing at the front witnessing what had just happened. I sat and smiled to myself for a few minutes and then drove home. Well this has been an interesting day. I decided I was too tired to do anything else and to sleep I went.

***Aleks' P.O.V***

-----The Next Morning-----

I woke up to the smell of bacon and pancakes. I smiled and took a good wiff. Ahhh bacon and pancakes. I sat up on my bed remembering what had happened last night; I can't believe Seamus kissed me last night... I didn't know he was gay, let alone liked me. And the weirdest part about it was the fact that I-I kind of enjoyed it.... Is that weird? I don't know, but Jordan likes him anyways. My one chance of getting over Mia was gone. I sat and tried to hold back the tears, but I couldn't. I heard James calling me for breakfast but I was too upset to eat. I heard footsteps coming towards me but I didn't look back. I felt the mattress sink as someone sat down next to me, they wrapped their arms around me. His scent filled my nose and made me relaxed, "James?" I said quietly, "Yes?" he asked. "I-I-I'm sorry..." I told him, I dont even know what I was sorry for... Maybe for the way I always breakdown and he feels like he has to help me through it? I feel like I'm taking advantage of him, like I'm using him for my own needs and to make me happy. "Sorry for what?" he questioned, "For being sad all of the time... You know you don't have to put up with it. Like, it's not your job to keep me happy... But I also want to thank you for it; for always being there for me, for always sticking by my side, for never judging me, for never being annoyed with me... For everything. James, I love you. I'm so lucky to have a friend like you by my side, who will always be there for me..." I said almost crying. I loved James but more as a protective, loving older brother. He smiled, "I love you too Aleks. I may not have to put up with it, but I do because I care about you..." I smiled and hugged him tighter. He is literal perfection... Wait, what? Aleks no, you're not gay okay? James is a friend okay? okay.

        We walked into the kitchen to eat our breakfast. I had pancakes and bacon and James had pancakes and eggs. A few minutes later he dropped some egg on his leg, "goddammit." he said. I've been waiting for this moment, 

"LEG SO HOT

HOT HOT LEG

LEG SO HOT U FRY AN EGG,"

I said. He laughed while taking off the egg on his hairy limb, "What the fuck are you on about?" he asked, "An erotic poem from tumbr obviously." I said in matter of factly. He laughed, "You're a funny one, Aleksandr," I smiled and continued to eat.

***Jordan's P.O.V.***

I am so happy that I kissed him, I've been waiting for this moment for a while now. I just love Seamus so much, and he needed to know that... I just want him to be mine forever. I want to love him. I want to make him breakfast in bed. I should be the one he argues with and continues to love. My love for him is unconditional. I have never felt this way about anyone before and I hope he feels the same way because I don't know what I would do if he doesn't. 

         "Dude, are you aright?", my head quickly turned to Dan, "Oh.. Yeah, no. I'm fine, just thinking..." I said shaking my head to clear my mind. "About Seamus?" he asked like a little girl asking who her friend has a crush on, "Yeah... I just... I love him so much, I want him to know that," I said, he nodded, "I understand. Look, I'm always here for you man, I'll always listen." "Thanks, Dan." I smiled. 

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I might write another later, I know I said that last night but I mean itttt.

Soooo yeah idk it's a little longer than usual, so I hope you enjoy it ^_^*