healing hearts

Chapter 8

Alexa's POV

I woke up this morning with a pounding headache and when I rolled over and saw the time, plus all of the notifications I had, it only made it worse.

I put my phone down and sigh, more dramatic than it could've been, i'll be honest. I throw my arm over my face and roll back over only to be stopped short when I hit something.

I move my arm away from my eyes and look next to me. Ben.

He looks so vulnerable but so handsome when he's sleeping.

He's laying on his back, with his head turned to the side, facing me, his arm is tucked behind me and his other hand is on his chest. His bare chest.

I realize i'm staring and i'm glad he's not awake so I can stare as long as I want. I make sure I take in everything about him just in case last night was just a dream.

The way his messy hair falls perfectly, his eye lashes casting shadows over his cheeks.

My eyes trail down to his chest, arms and stomach. I seriously don't know when he got so fit. But damn does he look good. His biceps and arms are so muscular, the sleeve of tattoos he's starting on his forearm look so good. The chain he always wears lying against his neck. The few tattoos he has on his chest and the way his abs flex and loosen as he breathes.

The blanket is pulled down a bit and I can't help myself as my eyes travel further down to his v-line.

Alexa, you might as well be drooling. Snap out of it!

I shake my head at my thoughts and let my eyes travel back up his body to his face.

I lay back down and then it hits me. I don't remember anything that happened last night after we confessed our feelings and caught up some more.

Please tell me I didn't sleep with my best friend the night we confessed our feelings to each other! God, no please! I don't even remember it!! I should really watch how much I drink. I only had like.. 4.. maybe 5 beers. SHIT!!

I have to ask him, I have to!

I slowly get out of the bed, hoping I don't wake him up. I yawn and stretch as I walk to my bathroom, turn the light on and close the door. I wipe my eyes and look in the mirror.

Alexa, where are your pants and why are you wearing Ben's t-shirt???

Clearly I don't have an answer because I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT HAPPENED LAST NIGHT!

I can't help but notice that it smells like him and smile to myself.

After brushing my teeth, using the bathroom and wiping off my makeup from last night, I slowly climb back into bed. I pull the covers up at the same time Ben starts stirring awake.

I turn over to face him and find that he's already looking at me with a smile on his face.

I can't help but smile when I see him.

"Good morning" He says, his voice raspy with sleep.

Fuck, he sounds so sexy.

"Good morning" I reply and prop myself up with my arm. He smiles at me.

"Sooo.." I hesitate when I watch a small smirk cross his face.

He chuckles to himself and runs his hand through his messy, yet still perfect hair. "You don't remember a lot from last night do you?"

I feel my cheeks heat up as I bite my lip in embarrassment and shake my head as I look at him.

He chuckles again and looks over at me, "nothing happened if you were worried about that. You're pretty brave when you get drunk though." He smirks at me and my cheeks flame up as he continues, "we watched some TV and talked for a while and I saw you were pretty tipsy, but it took me a while to convince you to go to bed. I helped you upstairs and I wasn't going to leave you home alone in that state so I decided to stay. I was going to sleep in the guest room, but you insisted that I sleep here with you. You had spilled some beer on your shirt earlier so when you collapsed on your bed without changing, I helped you and gave you my shirt, that's really it."

I bite my lip and nod my head as I listen. Once he finishes I let out the breath I didn't realize I was holding.

"God, i'm sorry Ben. I'm so embarrassing." I feel my face heat up once again.

He laughs at me. "Lex, don't worry, it's fine. I had fun with you last night. You are my girlfriend now so" , he smiles at me.

I giggle and smile at him, "I guess I am. I was hoping that wasn't a dream."

He puts his arm around me and pulls me to him so i'm laying on his chest. "It wasn't. It was real, and my feelings for you are just as real."

I smile and lay with him as we talk for a little while before deciding to get up and get breakfast.

He's my boyfriend now so I shouldn't feel weird walking around with just a t-shirt on, but I do. It's going to take a while to get used to acting like this with him.

We get down to the kitchen and make coffee and breakfast together.

Afterwards, we sit on the couch with our coffee and put on the TV. I pull my phone out and look at it, completely forgetting about all of the notifications I have.

I sigh out loud, putting my phone down and covering my face with my hands, "shit" I mumble out.

This gets Ben's attention and he looks over, his face concerned and his eyes creased in confusion. "You okay?"

I think about my answer for a few seconds before deciding to tell him the truth. "No, not really" I sigh.

"What's wrong?" He asks, studying my face.

"Alex" is all I can say before he moves closer to me and asks me what happened.

I don't even try to explain, I just hand him my phone and look at it as he unlocks it and starts scrolling through.

27 Missed Calls

43 Messages

The messages start out pretty calm at first.

Alex: Alexa where the fuck are you? Why are you with him?

Alex: Damnit Alexa, answer your fucking phone. I need to talk to you. ALONE.

Alex: You fucking bitch. All of a sudden he shows back up in town and you turn into a fucking puppy. Following him around everywhere he goes, and doing whatever he says.

And then they get worse..

Alex: ALEXA YOU FUCKING WHORE. ANSWER YOUR GOD DAMN PHONE BEFORE I SHOW UP AT YOUR HOUSE.

Alex: Let me just say Alexa, you're lucky. You're lucky I saw his car at your house. I hope he's fucking you good. Just wait until he goes back to school.

After a while of Ben scrolling through all of the messages Alex sent me, he looks at me, his big brown eyes soft but hard at the same time.

"Lex, you have to tell someone, or do something about this. This is wrong and you don't deserve it. He's threatening and stalking you. How long has this been going on?" He says, his voice stern and hard.

I shrink away from him as I watch his eyes darken and his jaw clench.

"N-not that long.. he usually does that when he sees me out with friends or with one of the guys.. this time is worse though.. probably because he saw me with you. I-I never answer and then it just stops" I say, my head down.

I think he realizes that he scared me a bit because I feel him move closer to me and put his hand over mine gently. "Alexa, i'm sorry, I didn't mean to frighten you. I just want you to be safe. Especially when I leave if he really means what he said." His eyes are soft again when I look up at him.

I nod my head, "he doesn't.. I know him. Let me text him back, maybe I can meet with him and talk to him, he's probably calmed down by now, plus he was drunk last night."

I watch him as he looks at me, he looks unsure. He finally says, "if you want.. but you aren't meeting up with him alone."

I nod my head and bite my lip, grabbing my phone and texting him back.

Here goes nothing.

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Sorry for the long chapter! I just love drama and a boy who's protective over his girl!

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