Glimpse of Yesterday

Chapter 4

Chapter 4

Trigger Warning: Suicide

I felt like my limbs was punched by a hammer as it gave up and fell onto the floor. I was speechless, unable to utter any words as I felt how my world collapsed like a massive amount of earthquake with just the doctor's words.

My mom sobbed but I couldn't cry, seems like my eyes were pushed into its limits to the point it was tired of producing any drop of water. I was just staring blankly at nothingness, silently battling the pain from the inside as it was slowly ruining my mental stability.

Yes, my sister has a brain tumor but we thought that she'll be able to pass it through medications recommended by the doctor as it was not that severe that time but now...

Shit. Stage 4.

"And it is best treated by surgery to remove as much of the tumor as possible, followed by chemotherapy and radiation. It will probably cost $91,000 or more with radiotherapy and imagining cost which she also needs to get surgery as much as possible."

Shit. Shit. Shit. We don't have enough money for her treatment.

I felt like I was drowned once again but this time it's different, because this time it's a mix of hell of anguish and sea of agitation were both fire and water collided resulting to a never-ending saga of restlessness.

When will all this shit ends?

I miss my sister's smile.

And the way she...

"Alessia..." calls me with her angelic voice.

She was lying on her bed full off shits in her body in this damn isolating room and I can't help but pity her state.

"Yes?" I sweetly said and went near her.

I didn't even get the chance to change my clothes because I was so damn worried to the point that I know I sting as I was still wearing the jacket of the hill man, and still in my school uniform.

I sat beside her and fetch her hand to squeeze it tightly with my two palms.

"I'm hungry. We didn't have any breakfast."

I thank God that I didn't get to spend the money from the man from the hill. Even I, am hungry too.

"Okay. I'll come back," I softly said and kissed her forehead.

Probably, mom's finding my father to inform her about the tragic news so currently my sister's alone.

I sauntered my way out of her hospital room in order to head down and buy something since I saw a convenience store near the hospital. It was a medium huge store full of non-frivolous things. My stomach suddenly growled just by looking at those delicious snacks and hell they're so expensive.

I fetched 2 cup noodles and 2 refreshments enough for the money that the man from the hill gave me. And when I was about to pass through the chocolate section, I stopped in the middle of sauntering and looked at those chocolates.

I once did get a taste of chocolate but it was because I stole it from one of my classmates just so me and my sister could get a chance to taste those and it was a one of a hell great bite as if I want to savor every morsel of it.

Yep. Stealing is bad but I'm a bitch so it doesn't make me less of a bitch if I don't steal those chocolates and I didn't regret it.

Except for now that I'm drooling over it.

Shit you, Goya. Why do you have to be that tasty?

"Oh, Ms. Oh shit. Are we that destined to meet?"