Glimpse of Yesterday

Chapter 50

Last Chapter before the epilogue. Thank you for reaching this far!   ლ(^o^ლ)

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Chapter 50

“Grayson. . .”

He hugged me tight.

“I know he’s not real.” He whispered.

I grasped his waist.

“But I was too guilty. I want him to accompany me for the past years of living with guilt. He reminded me of me back then.”

“But you’ll willingly heal, right?” I asked with slight hope.

“Don’t leave me.” He hugged me tight.

I loosened my hug on him and made him face me. With a trembling smile, I wiped his tears off and kissed his cheeks.

“Please heal, hmm?”

He nodded and hugged me again as if he's gonna lose me once he let go of his hold.

That day, he followed what Lia said. He got confined and is now under treated.

“This was the video that he saw four years ago. That was the time he discovered that Ethan wasn’t real.” Lia told me one day when we met in a café.

I looked at the video when she played it and immediately, my vision became blurry as I stare at the CCTV.

It was on our first night four years ago. When he told me that Ethan came into his walk-in closet but I caught him almost cutting his wrist with a blade, he was looking at nothingness as he stop the blade from harming him as if it was Ethan who tried to harm him in his mind.

“Ethan started showing after the incident where her grandmother harmed him with a knife. That was the time when his mind accepted the fact that her grandma won’t be able to forgive him unless someone killed him too just like how his father got killed in a fire. So his mind created Ethan.” Lia said.

I remember the time when he asked me about a boy in its school uniform. He must be referring to Ethan.

“He was in dissociation state at first after the incident because his mind refuses to accept the fact that his father died because of him. He didn’t know the fact that his father died, all he knew was that it run away and left him and it was his fault.”

“So why did he think that he was the murderer?” I asked, confused.

“He thought it was an attempted murder and it was because of that why his father ran away. He knew her Grandma has a mental illness so he understands that she was mistaken to call him a murderer although he thinks he is because it was what he thought he did, that he attempted to kill his father.”

My grip on the cup tightened as I stare at Grayson on the CCTV footage.

“So he remembered everything the moment he saw the fire four years ago when we were in the Philippines? As if he was in the incident?” I asked.

She sighed and nodded.

“I think that’s when his PTSD occurred. Some PTSD can occur years after the traumatic incident and that’s what happened in his case. At first, he just don’t like seeing fire but it got triggered that time.”

“So what was Ethan’s role?”

“It was to accompany him amidst the guilt. It was because of you.”

My forehead knotted out of confusion as I grip my cup tightly.

“What do you mean because of me?”

She sighed.