ՏTᗴᑭ ᗷᖇOTᕼᗴᖇ

Chapter 31

Namjoon's POV

I hear Hyunjin make some comment about my car from the driveway as I wake up.

I go to the window and see him and Jin leave in his van.

He's definitely avoiding me to leave this early. I couldn't blame him, as far as he was concerned, he probably thought I was a coward for not talking to him yet. He wasn't exactly wrong.

I got ready quick, agreed to practise with Jungkook again after school and got out before mum cornered me about making sure I was home for dinner tonight.

I walked around to the doors and spotted Yoongi on the bench. He was sitting with Jin.

The pang of jealousy struck my heart and I wanted to grab him by his favourite shirt and tear him away from him.

I knew he didn't like him like that and he wasn't mine but it still felt like he was invading on my property somehow.

I saw as he pulled his up and he wrestles with him until he has Jin pinned to the floor.

The rage builds within me at his hands on him. Why is he looking at him like that? He knows he won't have him. He's just toying with Jin.

Jin stands up and starts shouting at him. I love his fire. I have to go before I make a scene, this isn't exactly how I want to start a conversation with him today.

I get to my locker but its blocked by a familiar blonde, just not the one I wish it was.

"Hi Namjoon baby! Just wanted to check what time the party is Friday? Yoongi was useless with the deet's." I look at her rolled up skirt and how he seems to whip his hair with every breath and can't believe at one point I actually fucked this girl.

"Aish. Jackson's brother still has to get the kegs from the club down to me so don't get this early." She was a nice enough girl but she just did nothing for me anymore.

She placed her hand on my chest and pulled herself in close to me. "Okay well if you need help setting up or anything else just call me. You remember how good I am at making sure you get exactly what you want."

Flirting came to her easier than breathing but she was harmless.

I was glad I only had last period with Jin and I knew Coach could get me out of it.

I wanted to ditch all together but I made it to the end of the day.

I got to my car and sat waiting for Jin. I decided while Coach was drilling me that I should take him somewhere neutral to talk. Too many ears in the house. I thought about taking him to the bay, he loved the water.

We did a project in sixth grade about our future goals. Jin gave a presentation about him living on a boat and travelling the world. Hoseok would joke in future that he'd just marry rich and give Jin a holiday on his yacht instead.

I always thought they were a bit mad but I guess that's what makes them such a good pair.

I see him in the rear view mirror and open the door to call him. I can't wait to have him next to me again even if I can't touch him.

He doesn't even realise how gorgeous he is. He doesn't see the way the light bounces off his hair like its been touched by angels or how his smile is enough to make grown men melt. He's confident without being cocky. He's kind and passionate. He's everything.

I'm going to tell him everything. I have to, I owe him that much.

I need him to know how I feel about him but also what this could do to my mum and his dad. We needed to make a decision together.

I see who's car he approaches. I realise where I know the shirt he's wearing from too. My heart breaks as he gets in and beams his beautiful smile at Yoongi.

Why are they together again? I mean why doesn't he just whip it out and piss all over him at this point. It'd be a more subtle way to mark him!

Jealousy gets the better of me and I text Yoongi and ask casually what he's up to. I see as he glances at his phone then puts it back in his pocket.

Why is he hiding him from me? If he tries to make a move on him when he knows he doesn't want it I'm going to break every bone in his fucking body.

I resist the urge to follow them and head home.

I spend most of the evening practicing with Kookie but even his contagious little smile can't lift my mood.

When is he bringing him home? It's all I can think about.

I don't even care if he refuses to acknowledge my existence when he gets here. I just want him with me, not him.

Jungkook's getting tired although I can see him trying to push through. He doesn't want me to stop spending time with him so he's too scared to tell me he's had enough.

"Champ I'm exhausted. You have better stamina than me! Can we call it?" A harmless lie that he eats up.

"Yeah of course old man!" He taunts. I'll show him old man.

I grab him around the waist and launch him over my shoulder then run as fast as I can to the pool. I hold him at arm's length dangling over the edge.

He's a better swimmer than most adults but he hates getting his clothes wet.

"No Namjoon! I can't get my stitches wet!"
I pull him away quickly.

"Shit sorry! I completely forgot about them, I wasn't really going to drop you champ."

I cunning smile comes across Kookie's face as his feet hit the ground again.

"I can't believe you fell for that!" and with one giant shove he catches me off guard and next thing I know I'm in the water.

I rise to the surface and can see Jungkook laughing so hard he collapses to his knees.

As I launch for his legs to pull him in with me the little shit scampers away shoving his tongue back at me for good measure.

Even though I scream after him that I could kill him I'm just so grateful he's still here to do this to me I couldn't actually be mad if I tried. His accident had put aside any resentment I had against him.

He couldn't help he escaped my father before he could be damaged too much anymore than he could help how much he looked like the prick.

I realised looking at his little body so banged up and bruised on the hospital bed that it was never Jungkook I was really mad at. It was my father. I would spend the rest of my life making it up to him.

I got to my room to dry. After realising he still wasn't home I needed a distraction. I began sketching, the same thing I always sketched since the moment I kissed him. Jin.

Headlights pulled my attention from my work to the window. I see Yoongi's overcompensation of a car pull in.

I watch as they talk for a bit but it's hard to see what's happening as its so dark. I wanted to go down and remind him who's house this is.

Yes I know it's a stupid alpha male move but he had what was mine. He'd always been a childish little git that just wanted a win over me but I wasn't going let him use Jin to do it.

I got up ready to go rip his from his grasp when I saw it.

My whole world came crashing down around me as I saw his lips touch his.

I waited but he didn't pull away. He threw his arms around his neck and it felt like he had plunged his hand into my chest and tore my still beating heart out of it.

I threw my back against the wall just to feel something. I smashed my head back again and again until I felt dizzy and fell to the floor. I held my breath trying to ignore the pain I had caused my head. I could feel a trickle of blood run down the back of my neck.

I wanted to rewind to yesterday. I wanted to tell my mum I would never promise her that. I would never promise her I'd stay away from Jin.

I wanted to go back and take Jin in my arms, I wanted to tell him I love him.

I realise now what waiting has actually done.

I made it too late, I've lost him.