Echoes of the Heart

Date

I was getting ready for my date. I texted my mom and she sent an emoji back. That was mom-lingo for I busy with Ted so heres an emoji so you know that I care.

I wasn't excited, I was nervous, but honestly I didn't have hopes for this. We weren't each other's type, and there was no spark when we talked. Not like what I felt with Spencer. However, since I was sure Spencer wouldn't give me the time of day, theres no use waiting for things that are never going to happen. Silly Stephanie head in the clouds.

I grabbed my phone and my key. I sat on the leather sofa by the door waiting, it hit the 5pm mark and sure enough there was a knock at the door. He was on time, off to a good start.

I opened the door and there was Blake dressed nicely. He greeted me and told me I looked nice and I thanked him. Then walked down to his car, it was a yellow sports car. Which was incredible considering we were teenagers. I guess he was trying to really impress me.

He opened the door for me and I sat down. He started the car and took off towards the big city, its where he was planning on taking me for dinner. Some place I hadn't heard of but it sounded good. We made small talk and asked each other some things. Nothing out of the ordinary. We arrived at the restaurant and thats when his demeanor started to change. He had ordered for me, which was fine, I wasn't too upset about it, it was a gesture if done right worked well to impress. He talked about himself a lot more. More than most do. I followed a long by nodding and agreeing with him not having much to say otherwise. We ate our meal then strode back to the car. The drive was filled with more of him talking about himself. Then a car cut him off and he blared on the horn, he started to yell and curse. It really made my anxiety spike, yelling usually did. We pulled up to my apartment he seemed calmer now but I was still tense. He leaned over to kiss me, I was in shock. He continued to kiss me and then started to move his hands over me, in ways I wasn't comfortable with. I tried to push him off. He was persistent. I finally pushed hard enough to get him to back off. He hasn't taken the other shoved as hints.

My blood was boiling and pulsing, I could hear my heartbeat in my ears. I starred frozen. I had been in this situation once before, but this was different. I didn't know what to do, I was terrified of what was going to happen.

Not knowing what to do now. I just tried to keep him off of me long enough to think of something. He smiled and tried to kiss me again. I hurried myself out of the car, tumbling out as quickly as I could. I hoped that would be clue enough. He rolled down his window as I left the car, "my dad's a sheriff just keep that in mind."  He said before pealing off. Like anyone would believe me anyway.

I went upstairs in defeat, blood pressure still high and started to drink away the demons, I couldn't deal with them today. I drank all night until I passed out from sheer exhaustion. Date was a fail. I should really stop predicting things, I was getting too good at it.